Im only 12 hours sober from alcohol and the most I can usually make it is 5 days. Im not sure where to really start. I feel like crap and cant sleep, but am completely exhausted. I think i need to clean my liver, because my right side is throbbing. Ive been drinking water all day. I dont want to cut my life short over drinking. I have 2 small children, ones almost 2 in the summer and the other one is 2 months. I need serious help this time because i dont like who I am at all when I drink. My boys deserve better than this for a mom. I have already told my husband to not bring alcohol into the house and my friend I cant hang out for a while until I feel more confident in my ability to stay sober - which may be a couple months out. I really want to get healthy again and eat better and get mentally healthy as well. I have been out of control the last 2 months since I stopped being pregnant. I have broken all my rules i didnt want to break. My body hurts pretty much everywhere. Every time im pregnant im so much happier about everything because im sober. I just dont know how to stay sober and need some guidance on what to do to get back to normal and feel healthy again.
Hey! Glad you are back. Lots of resources for recovery. Hope you can make a plan to get and stay sober. It’s a lot more than just not drinking for most people.
Congrats on giving sobriety another shot. I do hope you are able to stick with it. Do you have plans for attending meetings, changing lifestyle (avoid situations that can be triggering), keeping yourself occupied so your mind and hands dont have time to tgink about drinking. The first bit is super hard. I myself am just over 3 months and still exhausted but slowly finding myself sleeping better. Reading threads in this community i realize that everything is normal and it totally makes sense that a body takes time to heal. Cant expect instant recovery after years of abuse. My mind would say why stick witg sobriety if u still feel like crap - dont listen to that demon. Stick with it for yourself - set small goals and you will thrive!
After i made my 2 month mark i started taking the following to help my liver recover. Olive leaf, milk thistle and liv.52
Wishing you the best
Getting to 5 days is great, start there and when you get to day 5 you need to really stay strong and go one day at a time. Once you show yourself you can get past day 5 you will feel more power in your self.
On day 5 you have to use everything you know how and make sure you do not drink.
Go to meetings online or face to face, do what ever it takes to get to day 6. When you get to day 6, and I believe in you, I believe you will. You have to believe in you too and you do everything you can to get day 7.
You can do this, you have all of us here for support.
It’s great to have you back 
I know that NA makes it seem like the clean time doesn’t matter once you relapse, but it totally does count for something! The longer you can make it between relapses, the better. I’m early on in my sobriety as well. Feel free to reach out to me if you need to talk! Xoxo
Just tell yourself you can do it. That’s not an easy task. I’m not there with you, but I’m in the fight with you. It’s OK to not feel ok. It’s better than being intoxicated
Have you ever seen talked to the Dr about this? If you can stay sober easily when pregnant and struggle more at certain times of your cycle then your hormones may be playing a part. You also should think about getting help from a program like AA, Smart, Recivery Dharma. I totally understand wanting to quit for your kids and feeling terrible as a mother that you can’t. In the end, I needed support from a program.
Try a meeting might help helped me wish you well
Have you sought out professional help or support groups?