So today I have an interview for an esthetician position ! Yay ! I’m so excited and nervous . Things have been going good with not drinking but I’m having trouble in my relationship . I’ve been super cranky the passed few days . I feel really bad but we had gotten a new puppy a few weeks ago and my gf is a welder and she’s good at most things she does and is very knowledgeable . I think I’ve been feeling down and she’s raised a puppy before, I just had a family dog growing up . It feels like she’s taking control of things and the whole thing about getting a Doggo was I wanted one for years before I even met her . I got to name her first name zenon, then she wanted to name her middle name, megladon . I guess it’s just bothering me because I feel like in our relationship she’s got so much talent and such and one time we were painting and my friend said here’s was so much cooler than mine and I felt like shit about it lol . It just feels like I’m just here sometimes for her emotional support and she likes to take over things and I like to be independent a lot, last night I wanted to make an appetizer and dinner before she got home and she got home and the appetizer was sticking to the pan so she grabbed another pan and tried to help but I just wanted to completely do it on my own . Which I know it sounds kind of bitchy of me and maybe it is . I’m at a loss here . I don’t like being told what to do and I don’t like that I feel this way . Yesterday too, I slept in and she texted me in the morning and asked if I slept in and I ignored that then she got home and asked if it was nice sleeping in and I said yeah ! I feel bad for sleeping in and idk why it just bothered me that she had to point it out . I always feel bad sleeping in and then it’s almost like she asking because she was envious of it ? Maybe I’m reading too hard into things but it’s causing me to be so moody . I also haven’t heard from my mom since she said she had to leave her spot last Monday because she couldn’t pay rent and asked to borrow the money from me and I didn’t have it . So that’s kind of weighing on me as well. 14 days no alcohol though !!
Another thing, she asks me if I worked on tricks with zenon and she got upset because I let her down on our dock once and she sniffed the sand but didn’t go on on the sand and she’s like “she can’t do that!” And yet we were fishing on another dock that was surrounded by water and she let zenon run around whilst there was bird poo on the wood . She tells me to work on training constantly and acts like I don’t know what I’m doing .
