140 days in

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I’m 140 days in today off pain meds , prescribed benzos and a daily habit of beer an marijuana . It’s been a rollercoaster 140 days that’s for sure . I seem to be in a cycle of feelings off down ness and anxiety an worry that nothing will get better. And then I’ll start feeling stable and hopeful that things will get better. I had put together almost 2 weeks of feeling ok. Started dieting and walking daily after work . Today was a random off day . So I guess I’m just curious if this is normal ? Maybe I just feel as if I should be feeling better all the time an my hopes are just set to high. Guess my question is , is 140 days still pretty in recovery to expect to feel back to normal

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I would say that yes, it’s normal.
I know that for me, even after 3 years I can still get in a funk every now and then. Especially these days where I can’t get any face to face time with other people like me.

And there’s alway PAWS. they can still pop up in the first year. Give it a google or search the forum. Use magnifying glass in top corner. Keyword PAWS.

14O days is a long friggin time man. It’s a miracle really. But It’s still very hard for folks like us to know how to deal with problems without turning to our DOC. Ya know? That takes a while to learn. But it does get better and better every time. We get a little farther each time.

You’re doing just fine bro. Keep it up. And I highly recommend checking out a meeting. Even if it’s gotta be virtually

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Thank you appreciate the response. Yea I’m familiar w paws and always curious if that’s what’s happening . I know it can take a year or so but it’s already felt like that after 4.5 months lol yea not turning to the DOC to help in times like these is the hardest to get use to. I’m trying tho that’s all I can do . Thanks again

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Today I reached 240 days being sober. I remember at 140 days I also felt like that, I would crave alcohol. Got through those days though and glad I didn’t give in. Every now and then I do get those temptations but remember the hangover, high anxiety and depression. So that’s what keeps me going too. I also just started my walks, they help clear my mind and I’m not so stuck in my head when I’m out and about. There will be days like that but you’ll get through them.:heart: Keep going.:blush:

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Thank you I’m hoping it gets a little easier by then . Def don’t want to go through this again. Congrats on the 240!

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