Hey yall first i want to say that i was very humbled this Thanksgiving. My son and i went to my aunts house where i found out that a friend of mine had overdosed on fentanyl and was found in a truck between odessa tx and crane tx. My first thought was to go get a beer or something and just drown it. I sat on my aunts porch crying for about an hour because it was so heartbreaking to me. But i stayed sober thanks to my aunt and my friends that are also on the wagon and it was great to spend Thanksgiving just around family and friends. Today is 15 days and its the furthest ive made it so im very thankful for that. One day at a time
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Stay strong Brittni and simply know things like this will happen in our lives & we have absolutely no control of anything but ourselves and our actions.
Hugs on your solid days and so sad to hear of your loss.
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When I was a teenager I lost a close friend from heroine. I was so young. I later realized that it was an and still is a huge public health issue. I thought to myself, at the time, I would never let a drug have that much power over me even though I was heavily drinking about every weekend. I just thought I was having a good time. Until fast forward 20+ years and it has ALSO been 15 days abstaining from alcohol. A concentrated focus. It’s been YEARS since the last time I’ve went more than a few days without drinking SOMETHING.
It’s difficult to know that SOMETIMES I can drink a few beers or a couple mixed drink and STOP. But it’s those times when it gets the best of me and I make irresponsible choices that could irreversibly alter my life or the life of those around me,
What I think about is how only by the grace of the gods, the universe, my lucky stars, guardian angel, etc….only by that grace have I not killed someone from driving while intoxicated, lost my license, job or support people. What I think about, is how I’m the only person my disabled son has and if something happens to me his life wouldn’t be the same. What would happen to him if something happens to me? Mind blowing. My actions have real consequences and people actually care about my well being and how my drinking causes stress in their life bc they worry about me,
So, I asked myself, “Connie, do you want to be alone, jobless, homeless…bc if you continue to progress down this path of progressively worsening behavior…that’s a very real possibility.”
The answer was no. So, the result of that is the only solution is to just not drink. Don’t take that risk of drinking bc more than enough times it ends poorly.
Now what though? How do I fill my evenings and weekends? Who do I hang out with when all my friends drink and live music is mostly played in bars? I’m getting there. Yoga nights, picked up playing a video game, get to go on a hiking trip to AZ. It’s called rediscovering my hobbies and asking your friends to join you in THAT hobby vs. drinking. EVENTUALLY, I WILL see live music when I have more sober days ahead,
GREAT JOB ON 15 days. WE ARE DOING IT! BELIEF IN OURSELVES IS SO POWERFUL!
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That is so inspirational to me you have no idea. Yes maam connie we are doing this. Thank you so much and im so glad that your son has a strong woman like you in his corner. So much love to you❤️
I am so sorry for your loss. Big hugs to you 
Grateful that you maintained your sobriety and were able to be around family/ friends.
A great job on your 15 days Brittini!! 
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I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m glad that you stayed sober. Losing one person to a poison doesn’t mean that another person should grieve them with a different poison. Congratulations on your 15 days!
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Welcome! Yes, those one in a blue moon times we can ‘control’ it make us all the more convinced we can control it all the time. We conveniently forget the majority of the times when it went badly.
If you take your time, and really get the hang of sobriety, you can for sure see live music again. I always associated music and drinking, like I experienced on another level or something if I had a drink or two (usually 7 or 8 tbh). But this last summer I went to a music festival sober and it was great. I could really focus on the music when I wasn’t constantly queuing at the bar or the bathroom. But I was two years sober then.
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