18 days and determined!

Hi All,
Like so many I am new here and have never posted before. My story is long and from what I read is typical for a drinking career spanning more than 30 years. I think I knew I had a problem a long while back but as I only drank at night after work didn’t let it bother me or I buried it along with courage to face the ugly reality of what I was becoming or doing. The truth is I didnt realise the damage and lost opportunity whilst in the grip of alcohol. My go to tipple was wine and my consumption seamlessly drifted from a few glasses to a bottle to two bottles at home, over time. Compound this act of triumph with after work beers then I was spiralling out of control. My body began to hurt my memory dimmed and thinking became confused laced with anxiety and paranoia. A father to children holding down an executive job I had an inner awaking one day where i looked outside in and confronted my own self about what i was doing and more importantly where i was going…no future on all fronts, dismayed children, fallen role model and alienation to those who know me. I decided I needed a solid starting point, a foundation rock to turn things around so I booked an appointment with the Doctor and told her everything. It was a baptisim of truth that somehow cleansed my tortured soul and gave me strength to face the demons (alcoholic me). I know I am better than this and with all my might courage and virtue will strangle this monster into oblivion. This app and forum is a rock and godsend. Sorry for the rambling but all the best to all that venture down this path I wish you God’s speed and success.

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Awesome dude! You got this! I’m almost 60 days in, and it only gets better.

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Awesome and welcome! I’m new too. I look forward to being on this journey with you! (21 days today for me)

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I was the same way until this go around. Now every doctor I see I have them put it in my online records that I’m an addict so every doctor I ever see will know. That way I will never be prescribed an opiate for as long as I live.