So today marks almost the 4th day. It’s been excruciatingly long. My husband’s had plans long before I planned to start being sober. So I told him he should go and not to worry. But now I’m worrying. I don’t have him here to hold me accountable. Don’t worry, I’ll be on ST alll night. I just want this part to be over with. It’s so freaking hard. I have my littles here with me so I have no choice but to be strong, right?
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Hey Taylor – stay strong my friend!
I know its shit feeling at the beginning but you can overcome the urges and the yuck feelings.
Smart to stay connected here (i do find it super distracting to be here and reading through the threads – try some of the Just For Fun threads as well).
If you are able to - log into a on line meeting. We got your back friend. You are stronger than these urges!
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Thank you! I was supposed to go to my first in person meeting tonight, so that sucks but I’ll be online for sure because it’s been a day. I appreciate you!
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Have you got a list of things to do? I was terrified of time alone in the early days, and I had to block out time so I would stay occupied. Could you do a meeting? If your kids are still up you could just listen in with one earphone and also keep an eye on your kids. And an early night is always good.
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For sure. I appreciate you!
Oooh yes. Everyone’s getting baths. Cleaning rooms. Shampooing the carpets if I need to. The one good thing is that having littles comes with an always messy house! I am going to hit a meeting though for sure.
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4 in 8 years! So yes. Fun & time consuming if we do all of the things.
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That is one of my biggest motivators. They are little now and I want to be here for it. Present. And not wasted.
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Being alone is hard. But keep yourself busy. I’m sure the little ones will help
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Stay strong!! You got this ! And we are right here for you 
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How’s it going Amanda?
The early days are rough. Signing on here and connecting is a great step. Stay strong and keep seeking and accepting support!
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After baths we decided to go get ice cream and popcorn and have a movie night. Going well so far. A new movie and the babes are keeping me straight for now. I appreciate all of you all for reading, caring and checking in! It means so much And I couldn’t be more thankful for you all.
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oh that sounds like the perfect evening – i do hope you all have a wonderful relaxing evening 
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