Just posting today as I hit another milestone today of 2 and a half years AF.
They say 3 of the most stressful events of your life are death, divorce, and moving. I’ve been working through all 3 of those.
I am honestly amazed that I have made it this far. Especially with the 3 “stressful events.” I don’t think I even knew I had this kind of strength in me when I started this whole journey.
I have said it before and I’ll say it again. I started this journey with the mindset that I just needed to “take a break.” I thought I would probably make it 3 months before using again, and then maybe I would be “cured” from the urges to use so often.
However, with time I really just enjoyed being sober and feeling healthier. I realized I was using as a crutch to “deal with” past trauma from severe domestic abuse which ultimately broke my self esteem and self worth down. I made a decision to not only break that chain from him, but also the chain from alcohol.
Everyone that has been through the chains of addiction understands how hard it is to break free.
I encourage everyone who is continuing to struggle to break free to push through those hard days, the grass really is greener on the other side.
There are a lot of things we cannot control in life, and that causes us to oftentimes feel out of control ourselves. However, just know the one thing you CAN control is your sobriety.
So take that power back.
There has just been so much I feel like I haven’t had control over, so having control over my sobriety has given me so much confidence and strength that I needed to take back.