At a time of going through a break up this hasn’t been easy coz I’ve been very lonely and addicted basically to dating apps which has made this hard. But two weeks of abstinence. At one point I had a year. It’s a nefarious addiction this one.
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Huge congratulations to you on 2 weeks!!! Thats amazing work, especially with what ur going thru right now. Proud of u!
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Nefarious is exactly right 
Glad to see you’re making some progress. Keep it up!
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Welcome back, Duncan. Back home and back in the saddle.
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Congratulations on two weeks.
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Checking in 19 days still going strong. Being mindful of thoughts and content I consume, staying busy and attending lots of meetings
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Made it to three weeks 21 days
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Good for you Duncan!
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Congrats, keep at it! 
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With my bad habits I keep notes on my phone to remind me what makes me unhappy about my behaviour. That way I can refer to them when my brain is trying to trick me. Hang in there.
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PS- I went through a phase of this too. I just managed to break the cycle by finding other things to excite my mind. Nothing wrong with M but the P bit bothered me and I just kept reminding myself that P made me feel bad after. Keep going.
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23 days very heightened emotions.
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24 days after a few days of rocky emotions had an incredibly balanced day! No loneliness, no pangs of emotion. A bit tired and bleh but great otherwise. Went for a hunt and a walk, walked the dog.
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26 days had a thought of relapse but had a conversation about it with myself. Realising even music can be an influence of my thinking. I think I knew that but it’s coming back to me. Feelings of loneliness and depression diminishing but am spending a lot of time in nature and with family while on holidays.
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30 days. Haven’t hit this milestone in a very very long time…. Definitely had the thoughts of relapse not for any other reason than as like a reward for getting that far or something silly like that. I do feel I would instantly lose out on the increased sense of confidence and self worth as well as likely some other things. Hence I’m trying to continue. I’d like to hit a year. I think I need to keep it in the day though as I’ve had some silly thoughts.
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Good for you Duncan! 
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31 days. Back away from my family, back to “work”. Definitely a big deflated feeling from that.
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That’s too bad; it is hard to leave family. Especially with the daily grind of work, it can feel kind of hollow getting back into it.
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32 days. Removed dating apps, talked about my codependencies and need to be loved at a meeting. Ready to try five back into work tomorrow, been to the gym. Definitely thought about relapsing but no real acting out.
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Dating apps were a bitch for me. I was allowing my addict brain to tell my rational brain that they were fine because they aren’t porn. But the constant swiping, objectifying, ogling of women (and men) was just cheap bad dopamine and a slippery slope to relapsing.
Eventually I recognised this and took the decision to delete my accounts (not just the apps). If I didn’t delete the accounts it was a sure thing that within a few days I’d have re-downloaded them just to check them.
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