I am just coming out of working in the adult entertainment industry for a year. during this time I drank heavily and often, coming home to my husband blacked out and destructive weekly. I attempted to use this app and get sober before, but I didn’t discount weed use during this time. I smoked and used any substances i could get for free to fill this void for a month while I didn’t drink. went to one AA meeting as well but the religion aspect threw me off. I have been out of the industry for a month, thinking my drinking would subside…but I got drunk while bartending the other night and fear losing my marriage and job because of my addicition. I also have college and an internship starting up this spring. I think this app is very helpful and I hope to supplement my efforts with it, talking about it to other sober individuals helps as I have zero sober friends, very few friends at all actually, and my husband thinks most of my issues are in my head ans eaay to control. any advice out there? Would love to hear from you!
Hey there! Religion is what made me not go through a.a before my last relapse. But this time around when they say god in the meeting I just switch the word around in my head to something else. It isn’t a religious program it’s just to make you realize you can’t overcome alcoholism by yourself and by your own ways. Your higher power can be a rock for all they care for now but the main thing is admitting that you can’t control your drinking by yourself 
anyways I could imagine being in the adult entertainment industry would be hard I worked in the casino before my relapse and for some reason I though that wouldn’t trigger me in any way but of course here I am. Every day I walked past happy hour signs and countless bars. And I worked in the steakhouse and the kitchen was open so I could see all the people drinking wine and beer as they were eating their dinners. It was just too much after a while. Now I’m just focused on finding a job where I don’t have as many intense distractions. It sounds like you have a good plan coming up with your internships! Really focus on that. Stay sober and focus on those goals 
omg people drinking and seeing them be happy is the worst!!! thank you i appreciate your response
Welcome @jaimelee! What @Steve92 was saying about AA not being religious is true. Even if your uncomfortable with meetings, read the big book and it will explain a lot. I’m using my meeting group as a whole for my Higher Power. I’ve surrendered my willpower over to something greater than myself (my group) I admitted I am an alcoholic (to myself and my group). I know I can’t get sober alone.
Waiting till the last second to clean up your act huh…haha, jk I also had to cut back because of work and my masters program starting. I was chill for a bit, then some things occurred, and instead of growing from them, I began drinking more and more.
I didn’t like the person I was becoming, so I decided to cut back, but it still wasn’t enough. Ended up just cutting off the beasts head all together- it is a much better idea. Now I’m getting my clarity back and it’s fucking great. Cheers! Lol