I joined this forum about 4 years ago and stumbled my way around for about the first year. I was lost, sad, angry, resentful, conflicted and so, so broken.
In the first year I reset my counter and relapsed countless times, I struggled to get more than 5 days sober. It was exhausting.
A part of me refused to accept and I was hell bent on destroying myself. However, there must of been a sliver of hope tucked away deep inside me because I kept coming back. I refused to give up trying completely. I was a hot mess.
Some of the ‘older’ crew on here gave me some tough love and although it made me feel indignant, it also made me really look into what I wanted and how I was going to do it. It was the slap in the face I needed.
I am FOREVER grateful to those guys. And also to everyone on here who helped carry me when I felt broken. We don’t give up on eachother here, I may not be as involved as I used to be but I truly appreciate this forum and everyone on here. I see you. I admire you. I respect you. I’m always vocally or silently cheering you all on.
Life isn’t perfect, it’s not how I imagined it to be when growing up but I’m ok with that now. I’m grateful to be sober. Grateful I get to continue my journey sober, present, aware and know myself better than I ever have before.
And it is a journey you know, I’m forever finding out more about myself and coming across tools that I can use to keep me sober. I still go to bed grateful every night and wake up sober and hangover free every morning. It never gets old. And like I always say, no matter how good or bad my day has been, I never regret not drinking.
Thanks @Cjp @Mephistopheles you’ve always been an inspiration to me, I’m grateful to you always. @AyBee ahhhh hahahaha the pink hair is so becoming on you my sober twin x @JasonFisher no, you’re awesome! Ahh hell, we’re all pretty awesome around here
Oh wow!!! Such a beautiful post to read. So very very happy for you Becsta!! Huge congratulations on your 3 freakin’ years!! That’s some hard work!!! You rock!!!
There are a handful of ladies I looked up to when I joined the forum and you were one of them (and still are). Thank you for your inspiration.
Congratulations on 3 years!
Hard at times but 100% worth it!!
Thanks so much @Desire2ChangeToday@Its_me_Stella@Chiron
Happy I could help end your day on a positive note @ELY83 @Lisa07 that means alot, thank you. Inspiration is never in short supply here
Best thing I’ve read all day…Congratulations lovey and check you out on this beautiful journey. I can only imagine the joy you’re feeling right now. I am so glad we crossed paths. I hope you’re soaking in this day because this is a pretty big deal. Proud of you. You ROCK XOXO
Awesome share! Awesome milestone! Your awesome!
Thank you for sharing your milestone with us. Very inspiring. 
