Hi there, been a while since I’ve posted. I was able to celebrate nearly 90 days dry this year which was amazing. Then I met someone who was a drinker and I was silly enough to fall off the wagon. Unfortunately he also physically abused me quite badly which sent me down a rabbit hole of depression. To the point where I had my worst binge ever. I never hit the hard stuff but this time I did and it sent me for my first time to bad withdrawal to the point where I had auditory hallucinations and extreme paranoia. I had a lot of shame about hitting such a low but also I feel it’s changed me in a way I can’t describe. When I got out of the hospital I put my bracelet on the fridge as a daily reminder that I don’t want to ever put myself in a position like that again. I’ve now celebrated 30 days dry again as of yesterday. I’m very happy to have celebrated that. I’ve never been a daily alcoholic but I know I have an unhealthy relationship with alcohol. When I go through distressing times or heart break I tend to try and drown my pain and numb them as we all know this only makes it worse. I was also thankful that during my hospital visit for two days I had a very good, maybe the best, psychiatrist that I have ever seen who gave me what I felt was the right mental health diagnosis and helped me find tools and resources in the community so I can learn how to deal with distressing emotions so that hopefully I can have healthier tools should the next time something traumatic happens. Fingers crossed it doesn’t. Anyway, thank to anyone who has taken the time to read this. I hope everyone is having a lovely day and I thank you for being on this journey of sobriety with me. <3
Congratulations keep getting after it! A good psychiatrist or therapist is a very valuable tool in recovery I feel at least for my own and many addicts who otherwise consider themselves "hopeless " cases even though thats is never true. Much strength!
Proud of you 30 days is excellent. You’re now back on track! Recommit, and keep pushing forward. We all have your back and are rooting for you! You GOT this! Keep up the good work. 
Thank you for the love and encouragement. It does feel really nice being back on track again 
and you’re right having the right therapist or psychiatrist to assist as well definitely helps!
My 30 days is Saturday after a couple of resets since rehab Oct 2018. I had 15 yrs sobriety at one point in my life, and I’ll never stop fighting, with God on my side!
Thank you! I keep it right on my fridge. And you are right. I had a dream last night that I had lost my sobriety and had to start again I read somewhere those are common but waking up today realizing that it was only a dream made me even more grateful
Nice job on getting back to sobriety!!!
Thank you to everyone. this is my favourite sobreity app by far and it’s truly because of the community behind it. 