I’ve made it a month clean now, and was craving hard today and yesterday. Journaling and meditation helped along with sauna and cold shower. But what really helped most was journaling because I’ve realized by writing that I felt drugs are a part of me. A part of my brain and body. I’m angry that it’s not. I’m angry that life can’t just be like the first few times when I took drugs, because drugs feel just so horrible now. I’m angry because I know I don’t even want to be on drugs but still miss what they once were. But I will stay clean and heal I will do what it takes to get better
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I feel this and get this totally. At times i wish i could do drugs and not have to experience the consequences that comes with it. The reality is tho is that will never happen. Addiction is always progressing. The sooner i accept that fact and not live in the past of what it used to be, the better off i am.
I think u are doing all the right things in managing ur cravings and thoughts. Its hard work but ur doing it. Keep focused on the present moment and try not to get “stuck” in the past were ur mind is telling u that drugs served some kind of purpose (when drugs werent causing destruction)… Bcuz in all reality that is a lie. Drugs truly serve no purpose and has never truly added a benefit to our lives. Ur doing amazing friend!
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I think we’ve all felt this way. That’s because drugs and alcohol are damned liars. They suck us in with their lies of “you’ll feel good”. Because really, feeling good barely lasts.
Keep on journaling!! It sounds like you are on the verge of a massive breakthrough.
YOU CAN DO IT!!
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Thank you and you too @VSue , I relapsed though yesterday was with the wrong friend in that emotional state I gotta get more clarity in my thoughts I realized, improve my mindset and more consciouslly let go of cravings, by being more aware of what I see, hear and feel. I choose sobriety today and If I would use today or the next days I will look for detox asap. But I know I can stay clean today and I don’t wanna go to detox if it isn’t necessary
Living on drugs and alcohol is the most miserable life someone can have and doing nothing about it bring so much suffering and get worse and worse with the time… You truly deserve to be happy and in peace with yourself
Sobriety is a journey and it get easier with the time….the more time your head is off drug the more it recover till the day where you can choose again so never stop fighting you can do it
Keep focusing on the day
Change the wrong people around you
Don’t spend time where you get tentations
Create healthy habits like sports and activities
You can do it !
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30 days for me alcohol free 
Anger will pass, or use it as fuel to your determination
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Congrats on 30 days! I know that feeling seems permanent. However, it does eventually subside.
Getting sober is like getting out of a toxic relationship with somebody you really “love.” You are angry that “they” can’t be better after all of the promises they made to you that they would change, even though you know in your hearts of hearts they are not good for you (and may even eventually kill you).
I think people forget the emotional attachment that comes with a DOC. It was there as a crutch for one reason or another to hide from those real feelings and emotions we don’t want to deal with at the time, so we block them out and dumb them down with drugs or alcohol.
Just like any toxic relationship, the pain of the “breakup” is real and emotionally challenging to pull through. Hence why those who are in abusive relationships end up getting caught in a cycle with it. Because even when you try to get away, the emotional pain of leaving becomes too much at times so you run back only to be abused again.
I think knowing and understanding that is especially important when getting sober.
Your DOC does not love you, and it keeps you from being able to fully love yourself.
Keep pulling through because you are doing great with making it to 30 days. The further disconnected you become from your DOC, the easier it gets to release the emotional attachment to it.
I was there once and speaking from my experiences. Now at almost 2 years sober and have no interest in “seeing” or “dating” alcohol again.
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Keep trying @Dreams. I’ve really enjoyed getting to know you these past months and your contributions here show so much growth and wisdom.
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