fell deep back into the blow for the last 10 months after being off for a couple of years but this time went heavy and gambled 36 k away too
not much light up there but there is a pin hole
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Been there bud. I was blowing so much money away (pun intended 
) Didn’t stop that one by choice. I had 2 heart attacks before 30 (8 monsters a day and coke are not a great combination) Luckily you caught yourself. You’re here now. This place is amazing and helpful.
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I, like you, have relapsed many times. Every other time than this last one. What got me was the thought that I can do it just one time I won’t get addicted again I’ll just stop or when I was clean I would be working, get a paycheck and think I’ve earned it just one time I deserve it next thing I knew I was strung-out again.
Hope you can find some meetings near ya to go to. I wouldn’t just keep trying it on my own. Need support my friend.
Good luck
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Relapses happen i havnt yet but im sure if you try a meetings as suggested they might help wish you well
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