In so disappointed in myself I relapsed tonight. I feel so much guilt shame and disappointment, I told myself im pathetic usless disappointment to everyone
Thought about taking all my blood thinners and cutting my arm down wards
My husband left with my two boys two days ago because I had some metal issues going on and thout it would be for the best if we separate for a bit…he took my kids and I felt I had no purpose to keep trying so I relapsed or had a slip a 800doller slip and it wasn’t even worth it I got ripped off .
I need help I haven’t had anyone to talk to since I left treatment in april I feel im spiraling again and I dono what to do, I live in a small town theirs not much for counselors and phycolgist im loosing hope again
I need some friends solber friends I have no one except my husband and children
I hate this town I need to move away
I feel like such a horrible person so hopless doomed to be a continues fuck up drug addict
Why am I still alive? All I do is mistreat ppl have metal issues were everyone is on egg shells around me this is not living this is torcher my head is torcher
Have you been going it alone since you left rehab, if so you must be so tired, I’m sorry about your mental health your family and your relapse, I aspect your so overwhelmed atm, why don’t you hit some na meetings online or look up where they are in your area, if you haven’t no support, did you work a program in the rehab unfortunately in we try to go it alone it’s so so much harder to stayed recovered, keep in mind it was 1 evening out of a year I know the feeling of shame and disappointment, but you get today to choose to carry on, if your feeling like you want to hurt yourself I’d suggest reaching out to services in your area for support. Please don’t ever suffer alone, I’m a recover g herion addict amongst other things so I know this journey is not a easy one regardless of doc… Your not alone my friend.
Hope you’re okay sweetie,stay in contact with this app,we all support you, we’re all here, just let us know how you’re feeling and Talking Sober community will help you:pray:…it’s going to be okay so long as you don’t pick up, lots of online meetings maybe someone could post links so you can vent xxxx
I am sorry you are going through this difficult times. I guess when your mental health is suffering it is more likely to fall back into old habits. I hope you can find the support you need at this difficult time.
Ashley, so sorry you are going thru this rough time. I know you are in a small town, but even reaching out to where you went to rehab could be beneficial. Lots of people get their support online, so there are options. Sending prayers for strength and comfort. You are not alone, my friend.
@ashleynrbaer dear friend!!! Courage!!! You have lived a sober life for a good period of time. A relapse can’t define how you are now. No way!!! This things happen to us addicts but what is important is to start again as soon as possible. Praying for you. I had been there. I failed after a year of sobriety and since then my progress is really slow. Courage my friend, please don’t give up
Thank you everyone for your support it means alot to me …I even reached out to my husband wrote him a long email about how im feeling whats going on with my head and what I have done… my boys are back home and we are gonna look in the next closest town for help for me.
Ahh I’m so happy, it’s so important to have support it really is, I’m glad you have your family home with you again, why not use this app as support on a daily basis it really does make a big difference.
Just dont loose hope the disappointment can rip us down but it can also give us strength. We’re all here to help each other out, your not alone in your struggles try get your head cleared and start on a fresh sheet of paper. I know how hard the mental issues can be to deal with for others who dont know what the diagnosis really is or the signs when symptomatic? Just have patients with yourself, your family, and the process.having to walk on egg shells is an edgy feeling i know i put my family through it. Reach out ask for help and you find the determination, it can get better, just learning how to manage is a bit tricky. We pray for you that your guided in the right direction, good to see you here, be well. God Bless!
I can relate, 2 days in and had a drink after a partner issue. Same small town thing. I feel upset. I look at you, 306 days in and am inspired. That is a lot and took strength, something to be proud of. You got this, stay focused.
So you relapsed it happens sometimes.pick your self up and dust your self off and get back on the soberity path you can do it. Theirs 1000s of us here reach out to us we care. The taking pills and hurting yourself concerns me. If you start feeling that way call 800 273 8255 it’s the suicide hotline. You can also message me I don’t care what time it is. I relapsed after 15 years clean and believe me I was going through it also. I have mental health issues too. So I know the challenges we face. Keep your head up it’s not the end of the world relapse happens sometimes it’s what you do afterwards. Your on the right track,you can do this.
