5_10_23. 7_18_23. 12_13_23. I promise to love myself and my family

May 10th 23 no alcohol
July 18 23 no vapes or ciggs
Dec 13 23 no form of pot

I recently smoked cbd yet again 0.25% thc
(I hate the science but its there)
Weed legal Massachusetts
(Hate the politics)

I reset my timer to tomorrow 12am for my 1st full day no weed
I really hate myself for always to reley on weed

The love for myself my wife and baby is my life
I promise to love it with all my blood sweat and tears and sold and mind
Until im dust

Some people would say weed helps
It realy doesnt unless its a physical help like for seziours

It doesn’t help anxiety
Smoke it for 20 years non stop and tell me that
It doesnt help mental health
Smoke it 20years and tell me

People say its better then meds because its natural
Yet its addictive and dependent

The difference between me and these people are our situation

If i need to drive im not doing it high
If im holding my child im not doing it high
I never ever want archer to see me high
He is here in about 2months
Clocks tickin and im almost ready

I promise. Through blood sweat and tears. To love my family

Smoke weed
Go ahead
Im surrendering to this weed dependence for for myslef

I have better things to do then relive 7th grade over and over

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Rock n roll

Still going thank god

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Youre doing amazing! Keep going! One day at a time.

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