It’s been 5 days since I left detox. I’ve been been back to work for two days…I am a head brewer. I’ve been able to go to an AA meeting every morning before work since Sunday which has given me motivation to get through the day so far. At the end of the brew day I would always have a beer before heading home. I found myself sitting in the same chair at the end of todays brew day and just staring at the bar top. I have 3 beer recipes that I made before detox in tanks and I don’t know what they taste like. I chose to just lock up and go home. The entire ride home I thought about that post work crisp beer I didn’t have. I’ve been having internal conversations about how maybe I overreacted by going to detox and I can have just one beer a day… then I remember that ppl who can have just one beer don’t go to detox. Just wanted to post this to get it off my chest. I’ve been ending my nights by thinking I’m going to bed sober so I’ll wake up sober and keep pushing through.
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Big realization and truth there for sure. Love your honesty.
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That’s so hard my friend. Have you heard of Ben’s Friends? Might be something to check out based on your line of work. One other thing, there are an abundance of meetings during the witching hours (after work and evenings). I would bookend your days for awhile to help you through the early days. We are very habitual creatures. This would be a good habit to get into. You are very courageous and should be proud.