I want to slip into oblivion. Why shouldnt i ? I want to feel loved, yet i ruined my marriage by having drunken affairs while relapsing. Whats the point?
All those problems will still be there if you drink. Plus you will have a hangover. Hang out here with us nerds instead.
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I forgot about that… i cant stay continually drunk… fuck. Thats why i got sober again. I start iop next week, hoping to get some good therapy then. Thank you for the reminders 
you guys are great.
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I need to learn to do that. I did love myself at one point, thats all gone now
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IOP helped me a lot. It got me out of the house for a few hours a week. I also had a one on one counselor. I went to 2-3 meetings a day for the first 5 months. Exercise helps too
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I took fmla from my job so i could focus in iop and go to meetings. I fucking drank after 5 years sober. I left my home town and family behind in michigan to start a new job in california. They were going to join me a month after i got to cali. I drank 5 days after getting to california. There was nothing between me and the 1st drink. I wasnt practicing the program. I was comoletely alone an alcoholic alone with alcohol. No god in her life. I drank. And i was like fine i drank. I just wint do it again tomorrow. Its like wtf, alcoholics dont work that way. I completely didnt think I would ever be in a position to be defenseless aga8nst the first drink. I was un my safe bubble for so long. So turns out i am a real alcoholic. Just the same as when i came into the program 5 years ago.
Sometimes we need those lessons. Well my ass needed em at least. You know what you need to do, but I will suggest one more thing. Use your prior knowledge to go help other alcoholics. Find a rehab you can take a meeting too. Go to the psych ward and talk with a detoxing drunk. Practice these principals in all your affairs.
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As I am re-reading the big book from page 1 the forward Etc I am realizing that one thing I really didn’t do as much as I should have is worked with other alcoholics. That’s like the Crux of the book! And I barely did that. I would go out to eat with other alcoholics… That’s about it
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IOP saved my fucking life. No other way to put it. It sounds like you have some good knowledge to get you started. Just remember, leave the anger and resentments out of it for now. Or… use that anger to fuel your resolve, use it to turn sobriety back into your passion. I went with the latter, but I’m me. I have a sneaking feeling from your posts that you might be a bit like me. But no matter what, resentments have ZERO place in this journey.
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Girl. U right. I think i may go to inpatient. Has anyone heard of recovery ways in salt lake city, ut.
Half measures availed us none , get a sponsor and get on the program 100% wish you well
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Im ok been on my travels off to Spain next sunday with the lovely sheila , silver wedding aniv: this july prob go to London for a naughty week end .thought i would enjoy retirement but im back working for a young guy with his Landscaping company he needs help working as his contracts manager through in Stirling not full time only part time and how have you been sweetheart x
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Trying Yoga myself , my scapular is still giving me prob .when i was in Cyprus few months back i had lovely young lady get her hands on my back and she said it was like a stiff board ! my back of course lol
im booked in april for hot stones so well see if that works all those years prob about 45, outdoors landscaping paying its toll , hopefully my sons will move out some day 23 and 21 have to get them fixed up with some nice girls lol
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Hey, @Jenny2, just checking to see how it’s going. Great to see you rocking day 6. 
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Doing alright - very sick right now - flu 
Well now, that’s a whole other kind of sick and tired. 
Bummer.
Rest up and get better soon!
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Thank you 