Just the 29th time according to this app… I’ll fail again… and again… and I’ll never understand why…I am strong…I do this literally biweekly… It kills me everytime… It’s almost become a masochistic reward… Knowing I can beat it for 72 hrs but fail 19 seconds after… Not even taking the vics immediately, but holding off until I can hit 711 and get a drink… it’s sick… I have finally looked into suboxone, so there’s that… I’m so tired of this bs…
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I’m a chronic relapsed also - about to do battle with some serious withdrawal. Congrats on the 50. Can’t wait to get there, seems like a lifetime away at the moment!
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Vics?. Or what?
Nah I was an IV oxy/heroin user long ago but I stupidly picked up Kratom a couple years ago and then recently Zaza (tianimine and phenibut) but both are basically legal/headship drugs similar to opiates in terms of the high and withdrawals
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So how do I stop completely? Keep getting “far”… Can’t finish … Don’t know why…
Mines alcohol cocaine and Co codomol, feeling somwhat shit from it all, and just lost my job
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Fuck man, that sucks… losing your job… all I can say in a positive direction is that that’s a real consequence… Hope it helps you push forward… Lord knows I don’t have that real life consequence… I work for myself…
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- Rehab
- Outpatient
- AA
- 12 steps
- Therapy
Those are all the things I did. Sure it seems like a lot. Sobriety is not some big mystery. There’s some pretty clear paths there, you just have to be willing to do the work
@Law1 this strategy will also work for you
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Thank you this is bloody hard shit, can’t motavate myself and can’t stop crying what the hell, sorry for the post, but I guess better out than in
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Residential rehab is really difficult to get in the UK under the NHS, its there privately but costs alot. …but all the other options above are available Laura. Crying is good it gets shit out and there for a reason
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Crying is good… Get it out brother… Feel the pain and harness it… Use that pain to motivate… You got this… I just made 72 hrs… First time in forever and I try LITERALLY 2 times a month… isolating and dying a slow death every time… But I made it… After 12 or more yrs (minus one good year) I finally have passed 72 hrs… If I can do this shit you DEFINITELY can… You got this… sidenote: When you quit opioids like I am there’s a window at about 20- 30 hrs where you can feel again… I bawl my eyes out during that window at fucking commercials… It’s funny af, but feels great… Knowing I can feel again…
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It’s brilliant to talk to other people, you don’t feel do alone, I slept awful last night,I guess as no Alcohol or drugs in me, I’ve been using co codamol to sleep with, I have one anti depressant to take and that’s it, hopefully a better day today, love and strength to you all, 72 hrs is brilliant love sent, stay intouch it’s good 
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Morning Laura, did u get stuff in place yesterday? Im proud of u for reaching out lady sending love and hugs 
Sorry, not sure why I call everyone bro on here, haha, I, also, can never seem to get to sleep but melatonin really helps me… I can literally take like 7 sleeping pills and nothing happens but waking up grogy af! Glad you’re doing well!
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Good morning, yes I’ve told my eldest children what I’m doing, my partner and mother in law, I have a call to make Monday morning for some help, I’m dreading going in to work as of letting everyone down for days on end, so the atmosphere will probably be shit, but hey I have to rise above it, I have a holiday booked September which somewhat scares me, but hey one day at a time, hope your OK too x
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Do u feel a bit better for getting it off your chest a little? X
Yes for sure
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Yey!!!
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Man I’m about hour 30 right now - my sights are set on 48 then 72 is usually the top of the mountain.
Can’t sleep it’s 3 am but just had that glimmer of liking music and getting emotional again. Those little wins are huge.
Taking my dad for cancer surgery in the AM, promised myself I would be clean for it.
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Trust me when i tell u that there are wonderful things beyond that mountain…when u get there…keep going even if its just a second at a time…it will be worth it
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