It all began on my 12th birthday, 16 years ago, I started smoking cannabis. At first it was only on the weekends. Then it became a daily activity. Now at the age of 28 and a mother of three I knew I needed to change. Though at first it wasn’t a choice, not by me at least. My youngest son and I had taken a nap and he woke up before me and had gotten into my reclaim stash. I didn’t know what had happened. I rushed him to an urgent care close to by my home. He was then life stared and put on life support. I didn’t know he had gotten into it. I though he had fallen and hurt his head. It was 6 hours after we were admitted into the hospital that I then returned home and found out what he had gotten into. I didn’t want to admit it at first. I blamed it on the cat; lying to myself to not feel like such a horrible mother. Once I returned to the hospital DCS And a investigator were waiting to speak to me. I had to tell them my discovery; though they already knew he had THC in his system. 2 days later at 3am I was pulled out of the hospital bed and put in handcuffs. I was arrested and charged with severe child abuse and neglect. I spent 9 days in jail. Now out on bail I am changing my daily life. I’ve made a sleep schedule, I eat on schedule, I’ve joined IOP, I’m making sober friends, and most importantly I’m staying sober. I’m trying to get into therapy, but it’s becoming harder and harder to find a therapist that can accept me. With 52 days sober I’ve learned a lot about myself. I’m vulnerable, proud, scared, happy, angry; so many emotions I haven’t felt in years. While using cannabis I was always paranoid and depressed. Not knowing that the thing I used to “help” me was causing more harm than good not only to me but to my family. Though my main reason to quit was due to DCS and now legal issues, but now it’s for me. I want this sober life no matter what happens. I wanted to share my story to maybe help someone and to show people that they are not alone.
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Keep it up! Mistakes were made no one was permanently harmed focus on the positive!
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I am so glad you’re here. Thank you so much for that vulnerable share. I wish the best for you and your family. You’re strong, Momma! Stay that way!
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Thank you 
I’m just extremely grateful that my little boy is safe and well, no permanent damage was caused. I thank my stars everyday for that detail.
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Absolutely! I am forever grateful for that fact.