I am very sorry to hear that and even sadder to hear you are considering using again. I do hope you will go out for a long walk instead or sleep it off more or find something to self soothe yourself instead of drinking again. Or a meeting…head to a meeting. Anything but spiral back down that hole.
I will also likely move your post to the Seeking Help section, which is an opt in section for those who are actively using.
You can read about the section and opt in here…