68 days sober and struggling with relapse prevention

Hey everybody hope you had a wonderful weekend. For me this weekend was challenging. My fiance had some medical issues that began Friday night. He has been in the ER since Saturday morning. I have struggled with my sobriety since this happened. I haven’t had any alcohol however I can feel or I do feel that pull towards using. So far I have been able to resist. Since getting home from the inpatient program I have struggled with dealing with my feelings sober. And learning to cope without alcohol when faced with tough situations. And this is my first encounter sober with a very difficult and emotionally draining situation. For me when I get tempted or find myself in my addictive behavior I can make up my mind very quickly to use. Very impulsive. I have to talk myself down, pray, journal all these tools have learned, to stay sober. Alcohol can be very tricky cunning baffling powerful. I am new to this community and.reading the posts and suggestions, and sharing my experience has been helpful to my recovery. I believe on my other post I got some really great resources that actually I have been using this weekend like podcasts.I needed to vent and say it out loud that I have been thinking about drinking. This helps me to take the power out of my addiction and put it towards my recovery. I guess this is kind of a burning desire of sorts. I am literally taking one day at a time. Thanks for listening have a great week.

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It’s great that you come and put those words down here, it helps you and it helps others. The odds of winning alone are slim, but together the odds are very much in our favor.

Life keeps coming after we stop running but it’s much easier to face with a sober mind. Best wishes to you and yours.

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