I’m sat here having massive cravings and really romanticing the idea of drinking again.
I’m looking ahead to the impending warmer weather, BBQs, weddings etc… and imagining drinking again in moderation
The idea that’s coming into my head is I can moderate my drinking using Antabuse. (As in stop taking it then after a week have a drink, take for another two weeks and follow that pattern and plan exactly when I could drink) stupid I know!
I’m struggling more now then I was in the early days, it’s every night I’m having these thoughts I know I’ll feel different in the morning though so I’ll be carrying on taking my tablets