70 + hours

In about 20 minutes I’ll be 3 days sober. 3 whole days. It sounds like such a tiny amount of time to NOT be doing something.

But one day from now will be one year since I picked up a cigarette. A year ago today, I had. O confidence that I could actually be completely free of cigarettes. I’m in the military and have smoked since joining, 18 years ago.

But this drinking … this drinking is a different story. NOBODY is telling me I should quit. NO ONE thinks it’s gross that I drink every day. I’m considered normal to most people whom I drink with. Hangovers are just a part of life. I feel like I’m standing at the bottom of a fucking mountain that I’m supposed to climb with no gear.

Me:
I am a 41 year old woman.
I have a wonderful boyfriend whom I’m head over heels in love with.
I am a highly functioning drunk who proudly shows off my skills at downing trendy whiskey and knowing good wines. I then go home by myself and continue to drink till blackout.

I am desperately unhappy with my repeated failure at trying to quit drinking on my own. My record so far is 10 days without drinking.

I attended a few AA meeting several years ago and was really turned off by it. Also, I wasn’t ready to accept help.

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If not AA there are some other recovery programs available wish you well

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I remember my first week. 3 days was immense to me at the time. 3 whole days of not doing something that has become such a part of who we were, as you say.
Well done for sticking to it!

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Hello,
I’m a 51 year old female, my addiction is alcohol too. I’m more than one year sober now. I did it on my own with the help of this app and a lot of determination.
Congratulations with your 3 days sober :confetti_ball:
I hope you stick around, it helps!!

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Maybe consider smart recovery go to go and get referred to your local drug and alcohol support unit.goid luck and stay connected.xx

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It hits me often on this site how we all think we are so outside of the societal norm and we have to work on our drinking problem. While we all admit with good reason that we have to work on ourselves, it is seeming more clear to me how “normal” drinking is in society. We are not so much with problems in comparison with the “norm”. We are leaders of change. Nice work everyone!

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I wish I could. The stigma is too great and I have zero confidence in the spouted “support” after witnessing too many people get taken down by asking for help.
I would risk losing a lot. I have to do this totally hidden from the military.

Though the military helped in this sort of situation?

That’s a great way of looking at it

AHH that’s so tough is there someone I really trust in the military you could share with.xx