So, all of this is based all in bliblical ideas, In Jesus name.
Its where this plan derives from.
I will post part 3, tomorrow night, August 21st.
God bless, have a goodnight.
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Thanks for sharing.
2 sections hits me tonight:
The part on selfishness and the quote from Luke («Whoever clings to his life shall lose it, and whoever loses his life shall save it. »)
And the first thing we have to « stop doing » : stop playing god : « You are either going to serve god or yourself. You can’t serve both. »
When I quit drinking almost 5 years ago it was when I stopped trying to save myself. I couldn’t trust myself anymore. All my previous attempts were me and myself trying to control my drinking or switching addiction or wtv. Then after hitting rock bottom i surrendered. I remember being on the couch, during Covid, and just asking my higher power to take the reigns, because I couldn’t anymore. I gave it all and I stoped trusting myself. My only job was to not drink and I did put my faith in higher power that whatever happens from then would be for the best. Because my way before that was heading to death. I truly relate to Luke’s quote.
I still see my addiction tendencies popping out in different areas of my life these days, even after some sobriety. I feel a calling to come back to more spiritual presence and practice in my life. Maybe I started to do again what is asked to stop in the book (playing god).
Would you mind posting the table of contents too, to see what concepts they associated with the beatitudes ?
It reminds me I almost bought the Life recovery bible the other day, but didn’t know if it was worth it.
Thanks again and good day!
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I feel that, i understand that deeply.
I did that same things 6 months ago with my whole life again, nothing in addiction, just in life.
But, in the trust of God, it always got better.
I think you’ve seen that story, possibly. The “DUI. God. Acceptance” post. Man, I feel you, and ill be sober 5 years in November.
Just coming back to Jesus, letting him do his works. It’s truly better than anything in this world. Letting that healing, that deep understanding.
Praise be.
Thank you though for opening up, truly. It’s rough out here always trying to do it alone and go after material all day long. 
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Wow, I love that table of contents. Thanks for sharing and for your heartfelt messages of all of your experiences. The surrendered life is such a gift. Such a rediscovery. Allowing us to live St Teresa of Avila’s simple guidance, Let nothing trouble you.
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Many tough days ahead, but, it only gets better as we live to let go in God.
Praise be to the most high.
Thank you for joining us.
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PART III 
“Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and dine with him, and he with me”
(Revelations 3:20)
“Lead me; teach me; for you are the God who gives me salvation. I have no hope except in you.”
(Psalm 25:5)
This part is dealing in Hope, hope with our Lord, Jesus.
I do want to take a second and just thank you for all those who are doing this, both on here, and by yourself. It’s not easy, its hard. But, Jesus can free us from any bond when we’re willing to accept His guidance.
I pray, thank you for today Jesus, thank you for bringing people together in this, in your name. I ask to bring people hope, care and deep rest in there souls. In our brokeness God, i give it to you, to repair, to love and to fix. I know you can do all things and I trust in you. In the struggles of others I hope they can trust that you will guide them through sobriety, through any hang-ups life gives them, through there own brokeness. For we can’t do it ourselves God, and we admit that, with oppeness. But, we are inspired to follow you God, for you know whats best.
I know God, if i truly follow my heart, i will end up broken, but if i follow you, I will get closer to what you have built for me within my heart and soul. Thank you God, for never giving up on me. In blessings to all, thank you.
Amen.
Ok no, but seriously, im tearing up. 
And, to the questions in this very short piece.
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Before taking this step, where were you trying to find hope?
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What do yo believe about God? What are some of His characteristics?
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How are your feelings for your heavenly Father and your earthly father alike? How do they differer?
Jesus is always there, but my Father was never there, never gave a fidditly fuck.
4.How can your relationship with your Higher Power, Jesus Christ, help you step out of your denial and face reality?
5.In what areas of your life are you now ready to let God help you?
In every way,
From my Anger, Sadness, I can honestly say, Jesus, you know all things, you know what is best. Lead me, for I know you bring good. I will embrace hardships with you, because I know you’re leading me to better situations.
You already have since truly accepting you as my Savior.
Thank you for all you have already done, have done and will do.
I expect nothing from you Jesus, but I know you will give more than I need.
6.What things are you ready to change in your life? Where can you get the power to change them?
Those are the questions for this part.
Sometime next week I will post part 4.
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@Jette just thought i’d do an @ thanks for the reach out. All things become good, In Jesus name.
The best 2 minute thing I ever sat and listened too outside of the bible, also part 3 is posted.
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Well… i really needed to read this today lol I was struggling today with letting go and letting God, filled with mild anger, stress, frustration and worry, was wanting to emotionally eat to cope. Its been an internal fight today and it all stemmed from the lack of awake overnight care for my son over the next month. So thank u for encouraging me and providing a space for me to invite God into my day 
Anyway to answer these questions:
- Before this step i attempted to find hope in drugs to make myself feel okay being in my own skin. I had hope in people which often left me disappointed. I had hope in myself to get things done in the way I wanted them done and that was very selfish based.
- God to me is someone who is faithful to me in that He is always, always there. He is kind, forgiving, understanding, and loving, someone who can empathize with my suffering bcuz He has suffered. He is all knowing and helps guide me in all my thoughts and actions (if i let Him)
- They arent very similar. My dad was very unemotionally available to me as a child. I have had to learn that my father just wasnt capable of showing the kind of support and love that I needed. There was a lot of resentment towards my dad about how he treayed my mom. But once I fully and truly accepted that he isnt capable of this, our relationship improved bcuz I changed and my expectations of him had changed.
- Idk if I am in denial about anything… not sure. But i know that God provides me with help that I need. Even if my prayers arent answered right away, i still get a lot out of daily prayer such as connection, peace, guidance. And if I do Gods will daily, i know that God will always give me what I need. Maybe not what I want, but always what i need.
- I need God to help me manage this situation Im in of having to be awake for 3 days and nights in a row this coming weekend to care for my son. I need God to transform my thinking and guide me in my actions so that Im not bitter or angry or moody. Id love for God to help me with finding better ways to cope with my emotions instead of reaching for food. I would like God to help me reach my health goals. I need help with acceptance and also with letting go.
- I know that God can do for me, what I cant do for myself. And I know that God can give me the strength when im weak. Im ready to change when it comes to my health. Its important for me to be fit so that I can live a long life to care for my son. I want to change how I treat those people that hurt or irritate me, including strangers. Just to respond with love and understanding like how God would want me to respond. And im ready to change my relationship with food.
~ The section on Openess to change, really impacted me today. I dont often like change. Even tho Im aware that change can be beneficial! But i like to control the outcome of alot of situations and i have to remember that, my way is sometimes not the best for me. I proved to myself in addiction that my best ideas got me here lmao so obviously i need God to give me the guidance that i lack for myself. I think when it comes to this situation with my sons overnight care, instead of allowing this to make me bitter (which it did today), i can take this obstacle as a sign that I need to focus purely on God and be in the moment. I was lacking that connection with God today. I was in self, feeling miserable, worried. And i see now that God is who I need to reach to. Not to food or to complain or to feel miserable. I just needed God
Thank u once again @MTSober for the beautiful message and thought provoking questions. It really has made a diff in my day 
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Sorry, I was busy to reply.
I just want to say thank you. Its true bravery to really open as you do.
I’ve been also worrying a lot late as you know. Its tough, but look at it as a new space to pray, to open, and let go even in the toughest times.
I understand control, but there is a letting go that we can both learn even in uncertainty, anger, saddness.
But, also, in the unknown God creates changes that can be better than we had hope for.
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Is this every weekend?
This realization alone changes all.
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I appreciate ur honesty and openness in ur posts also It helps me to be vulnerable as well.
I cant imagine the pain and hurt and worry and anxiety that comes with the situation that ur dealing with. U seem to be handling it like a pro honestly. Just super composed and calm and focused. I need to be more like that lol I know it hasnt been easy for u and I pray that u get the desired outcome that i really do deserve
No its not thankfully. I wrote a post about it today and its long and basically a vent session, seeking support. But basically, in short, our full time nurse took 1 month off and the organization responsible for providing care is now scrambling to cover her shifts. And so some shifts are covered now. But this Fri night, Sat night, and Sun night are vacant, which means i have to do them AND go to work from 8am-4pm both Sat and Sun. It really effects me in the moment, but its also making me bitter today Honestly ur post was what made me really connect to God today. It was the invitation I needed
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Everytime i leaned and said God, you know where my heart is.
In sobriety.
In a lot of things.
He did.
The changes in 7 months, i mean the stuff im going through. I prayed for. You pray for change.
Itll get tough then God wins.
Praise in the deepest of waters, for He will.
You absolutely have too? Like no way around it.
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Ya. My son needs 24 hour awake care due to his tracheostomy (which he has bcuz of his brsinsten tumor). Thats why we have nurses who are trained in tracheostomy care and they come from 10pm-7am every single night. Well unless they call off sick or have an emergency. So if they call off, i have to do them bcuz im trained, which means i have to stay awake to care for my son.
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Oh.. wow. That is insanity.
With no outs?
10 pm 7 am then back an hour later…
There had to have been a notice, or the organization didn’t organize.
There has to be an out. Something.
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She said she had a family emergency. Like literally the night she was supposed to come in to start her shifts, she called off for a month as she had to go back home to the Phillipines to care for her mom who had a stroke. I totally understand that and am not mad at her for any of this.
But starting tmrw… ill be awake all day with my boy, then all night. Then i go to work from 8-4, come home. Will probably try to nap until i have to wake up for the overnight shift. Do the shift with my son. Then go to work Sunday morning from 8-4. Come home. Nap for a few hours. And then to the overnight shift again. Then be awake all day Monday. Someone is coming in Monday night tho
To be honest this isnt the first time this has happened. We used to have A LOT more issues about 6 years ago when my son first got his trach. That was hard. Nurses falling asleep on the job. Missing shifts. Struggling to find good nurses. So im trying to be grateful that for the most part, things are decent now with nurses. This is just a hiccup in the road 
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I’m understanding the situation better. Sorry to hear for all of it.
With her leaving for her mother, putting you in a bine and all that.
Its a tough situation all around.
Well, im glad you’re finding some solace.
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I have this too. Sometimes I feel he showed me a destination and I’m left without knowing how to get there. But maybe it’s just because the way to get there feels different then my usual ways. Like quitting a job definitely feels different than keeping it !!
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Oh I haven’t read everything in detail, I’m sorry to read about your situation. This past week my child had to go to hospital for 48 hours and it was a struggle - I can’t begin to imagine having to do the care at home like you do! Hopefully everything will be fine 
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Changes that God put fourth, its different when we can let go and turn to the unknown, even in the deepest of waters.
But, remember, we all, everyone one of us tried to control and then lost control of ourselves. Trying to free ourselves from the hurt, the pain amongst other things.
Its all different.
Me just sitting there this summer, in mental anguish as the tides were something i never seen before.
But, we pray, we say here you go, Jesus, you have me, i trust you more than myself, nonetheless other people.
Thats the strength, the vulnerability.
To simply say, i dont know whats going to happen and to listen, to obey.
Obeying is funny, it brings down pride, brings down all of these emotions we had. Its something that most of us wouldn’t thought we would do.
But, there is a deep power in Gods grace, in his care.
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