In 4 hours, I’ll officially have 8 days free from the grip of suboxone. I tried posting here when i was under 3 days and having a brutal time detoxing. I was using tramadol (prescribed, btw) to take the edge off the worst symptoms. It worked fairly well.
Other than 1 person who was very supportive (thank you for that), i started to get a chorus of “that’s not a good idea.” I think what’s really not a good idea is to take people in early sobriety and pontificate without offering any encouragement or alternative. Ive heard of people using weed or other substitutes to get off dope and i could never imagine critiquing someone’s journey. Anyone who’s gone through the hell of cold turkey also had the luxury of taking a wk or two off from life and its responsibilities. Some of us only have ourselves to depend on.
In any event, i woke up Sunday with an enormous burst of energy (lasted 2 hours lol) and a giant smile. For me, 5 days was the hump i needed to get over and it feels amazing to not depend on anything to get out of bed in the morning. I’ll probably get rid of the subs and tramadols that are still in the house; it scared me a little that this morning it crossed my mind for a split second that i could take a sliver of a sub, clean my house, and do chores. Fuck that! It looks like a dump in here right now, but everyday im getting stronger and housework will be there when I’m 100%.
I guess i wanted to post this to encourage others. No one has THE WAY that’s gonna work for everyone. I had 8 years off heroin (used subs for 3 weeks that time to get clean), fell back for a year, and it’s over this time. Have my first meeting in a few hours and, for the first time ever, I’m really looking forward to it.
One day at a time, my friends 
