I have a phycological problem with weed i figured outbafterbthis relaps. When i smoke it brings me to a very bad point of time in my life. A very mentally streighnful point.
If i smoked it right now i would get all awkward and mentally dull making me feel like i did something wrong. Its almost like i litterally caused myself some brain damage from too much use at a young age. I smoked a lot a lot. Like a lot
Then one day i dropped out of school and stayed home for a year. Everyday for 8hours id be alone. This was after years of pot abuse. Sometimes id have weed and when i smoked the phycological effects caused me to have schizophrenic sympotoms eventually about half way through the year alone in the house for 8hours or longer till one day i broke and weed litterally was driving me crazier and crazier. Then unwillingly i wasnt allowed to smoke yet my family was doing it infrunt of me. So.id ask.to.smoke and they would say no then light up infrunt of me. This would get me so confused and angry. This went on for years and years and years. I think it phycology fked me up lol 
its funny how so.much pain can come from weed that is suppost to.make you feel happy. I want to be happy but pot doesnt do.it anymore.
So
This last relaps was ofcourse a disaster like they all are. I blammed everyone but myself until now, the morning after, and im in the dog house but im not getting into that.
Any thoughts. Advice. Light criticism. Pretty much any words are appreciated if they are helpful
Thats my pot story