9 months sober
My life has changed a lot in 9 months. I have lost the compulsion to drink alcohol. I don’t obsess everyday about having to find a way to drink. My mind is now fresh and clear and although I still suffer from anxiety I am able able to deal with my emotions and be anxious without taking a drink.
What has worked for me:
- fully surrendering to alcohol and WANTING to not drink again, I still wanted to drink in the past
- practicing the 12 steps of AA and living my life by the daily steps
- getting a sponsor and meeting weekly to work through the steps properly
- Doing a minimum of 2 meetings a week (this is working for me)
- Praying every day and doing my daily reflections
The hardest thing for me was removing the mental compulsion that craves alcohol, this has been removed for these 9 months, I haven’t been close to drinking even once so I will continue to work my daily program which has worked so far. Why change something which works?
I was taking Antabuse which I stopped taking. I sought advice from others and deemed this was my next recovery step. I’ve still got some in stock for “just in case”
My defects of character have improved although I’m not perfect
- I still think I’m gods gift to women and flirt (but I don’t act on anything sober even when I’ve had it on a plate)
- I still get angry though it only gets to throwing an item or punching an object (not physical violence towards others)
- I still have an attitude problem sometimes but can reflect on this and realise I have
I’m hoping I will improve over time if I keep doing my daily reflections
Hoping I get to a year sober. Thanks for the support everybody 
