Its been 99 days since i decided 2 change my life around. 99 days. Im so incredibly proud of myself. Before this i had 137 days sober n relapsed when my BF at the time had got out of jail. I have been sober now since December 2nd 2019. The day i left my ex BF. Well guys i havnt talked 2 him since that day. I moved 3 provinces away. The day after i begged him to get clean with me and he looked me dead in the eyes and said no way in hell. Well the day after he told me no. He got picked up on an outstanding warrant and incarcerated from December 3rd 2019 until march 5th 2020. Im scared cause hes my one main trigger i want 2 stay away from. Hes told me that he will find me n we will be 2gether regardless of what i say. Please keep me in ur prayers.thanks. T
Do what you want to do. Really think about it before you make a decision about it though. You know the previous behaviors. Now if you hung out with him how would your life be one month from this moment? Be honest with yourself trust your instinct. Everyone can change but does he seem like it will really be different? Not biased either way just questions you should consider. Be good!
Hey and welcome.
Well done on 99 days.
If you have moved away from him surely this will make it hard for him to find you.
Look at ways of making it harder, like don’t go on social media etc.
Don’t live in fear of him because that is not good for your sobriety or mental health.
I did yes i moved 21 hours away back to my home town. But after getting out of jail he moved back to his home yown which is 2 hours from me. I dont fear him as in like he will hurt me. I fear him because i know 1 he will have drugs on him and 2 he would love nothing more to see me fail. Not this time tho. I hope i thought i was stronger last time to. But he is a narcissist n smooth talker. I dont ever want 2 be alone with him again. But he finds ways to get me alone. Im a runner i love 2 run alone listen to music n clear my head.
I guess my only option now is giving it to the big guy upstairs. Seeems through all this when every single 1 of my family members turned there backs on me n i was alone.
Iv never been to any meetings or anything like that.
My afm counsellor suggested na meetings but i am scared 2 go because iv heard alot of storys.
Im so excited that iv reached 100 days… its wierd its like da javú… its almost like iv been giving another chance at a redo and i aint fucking it up this time.
Thanks for listening… 
I’d say don’t listen to the stories about NA.
You can only make your own decisions.
What stories have you heard about NA? I can’t recommend it enough! If you go and gravitate towards the women there who are serious about their recovery and don’t get romantically involved with anybody there then you will only have a positive experience that will benefit your recovery. You already know to stay away from your ex. 
Congrats on your sober days! Why not try NA or even AA? I go to a women’s AA meeting twice a week and they are nothing but supportive. You shouldn’t have to do this alone, white knuckling it rarely works. I suggest blocking the ex’s phone number to avoid temptation. Best of luck.
I always hear success stories about people getting, and staying, sober in NA. Based on those stories I went to NA and can confirm that people there were getting, and staying, sober on a regular basis. My first sponsor was a hopeless crackhead. Now he’s 9 years clean, has a beautiful family, and is a awesome human being (hence why I asked him to sponsor me). I guess now I can write my own story as I am well over 28 months sober through AA and NA and most importantly the 12 steps. I regularly interact with people have been sober 30 and 40 years in those programs. I figure it must work if all these people are getting, and staying, sober.