That’s fair. In that case I would suggest you take some time to think about your daily schedule and build in some time daily for:
- meditation and reflection
- naps / extra sleep (you will be tired - especially in early recovery)
- healthy snacks and meals (take time at least every few hours for a snack)
- connecting (texts, calls, shares) with other people in recovery (on Talking Sober and/or your recovery group (AA or other groups - there’s a list here: Resources for our recovery)): talk about what you struggled with, vent, share, listen - connect; human connection is essential (we live in castles in addiction - we live in this world of walls we put up between ourselves and others; and in this world our addiction thrives - and by stepping out of the castle and being vulnerable in healthy ways, that helps us realize we don’t need the walls, and that helps us find freedom)
Be gentle with yourself. The important thing is staying clean and connected. That takes energy; it will be a mind switch and it will feel foreign. It’s like learning to speak a new language. Take it one day at a time and be gentle with yourself. You’re not perfect. You are learning.