A break of shame

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I’m tired of feelings of shame and guilt. For most of my life, I tried protecting the people around me and covering parts of myself to be loved.

I had a lot of reflexions about love, blood and family. At this point, it doesn’t mean anything to me. Nothing hurts me more than having someone tell me they love me because we are blood related, but knowing deep down that if they knew me, they would never love me.

Anyways, I don’t have the energy for guilt or shame anymore. Maybe I have an alcohol use disorder. Maybe I don’t. You know what, I don’t care anymore. I have to love myself first, before anyone else. In order to do that, I have to accept myself for who I am, deep down.

I’m still trying to figure out who I am, what kind of life I want and how to go through this human experience.

Maybe I’m writing this to give myself an official permission to get to know myself. To follow my heart and my soul. To try and fail and try again and never give up. To never again kill parts of me to soothe others.

That’s it. I’m not giving up. I’m grateful.

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Strong words thanks for sharing!! Super inspiring

I love what you said about killing parts of yourself to soothe others. Really resonated.

Hope you’re able to find a bit of peace :dove:

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I am so happy to read this from you. You deserve the space you are giving yourself here. This is true, and real, and helpful.

That is so true. You are opening this new chapter you’ve never read before, and part of that is closing the old chapter.

Good. You have the mindset. Keep learning, keep picking yourself up, keep asking for mentorship and keep taking advice. You can do it.

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Thank you so much !! Your support means a lot.

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Thank you for sharing this. It is exactly what I needed to hear this morning.