I am shocked and saddened. I am angry and sad. A dear, close family friend committed suicide last month and I just found out through fucking Facebook. It doesnt make any sense. His partner of 30 some years had a stroke several months back and has been in a rehab facility. He hasn’t been doing well. My friend would say that he couldn’t live without him, that he wouldn’t know what to do. But how could he leave him this way? I am so upset and angry. I don’t know what to even say. I have known several people who took their own lives but I just can’t understand this. I can’t accept this.
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Wow… I’m deeply sorry! Prayers and hugs!
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Its okay to be mad, sad, shocked. What he did was hurtful. Grieving is a process. Acceptance doesn’t happen over night.
it sucks to find out things over facebook.
I hope you are able to process through this without loosing your sobriety. IDK about you, but my sobriety is something I can hold tight to for comfort in times of stress, way better than drugs or alcohol ever did.
We had a suicide attempt in our family recently, and I’m so glad it happened after I got sober. So many feelings even considering the person made it out alive. Im kind of dreading seeing this family member as I am still having some hard feelings.
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So sorry for your loss. I don’t understand suicide, it baffles me why people do this . I think everything you’re describing and feeling is normal. You just have to let those feelings happen.
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I’m sorry for your loss.
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I am very sorry for your loss.
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@Brookiemonster618. I’m sorry for your loss. Life is cruel and we never know how bad someone is hurting inside. That’s kinda the fine line us addicts have to walk. We don’t have room for resentments in our lives anymore. It will take you to a bad state. I suggest you love the person that was and the soul that is. Pray for all people involved (including yourself). And I’m going to post this again.
Acceptance
"And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation – some fact of my life – unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment.
“Nothing, absolutely nothing happens in God’s world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life’s terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.”
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I’ m very sorry for your lost
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So sorry for your loss… 
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Very sorry you are going through this @Brookiemonster618. Suicide doesn’t make any sense to me.
Someone I knew took their life this year. Drugs were involved. It made me hate opiates a lot for a while. Alcohol is one of those drugs. It’s a nasty depressant that many people don’t need.
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Sorry pal. No words, just sorry for you and yours😔
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So sorry. How frustrating you heard the news so much later through Facebook. So sad.
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Update: I didn’t drink. I really wanted to. It’s the most I have wanted to since I became sober. But I didn’t. I knew it wouldn’t make me feel better at all. If anything, it would probably make me cry even more. But I’m also not doing well, at all. But I’m am proud of myself for not drinking.
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I am sorry about your friends. It is wretched being left behind by suicide (I know, as my first husband killed himself 25 years ago and I have lost other family and friends to suicide over the years). It is hard to live with questions that can never be answered and grief tinged with anger. Suicide tends to bring up a lot of emotions and challenge us in many ways.
I am glad you didn’t drink, as that solves nothing and makes you feel worse. A clear head helps us move through grief and accept our feelings as they come, and go.
One can never know another’s inner life and struggles. Many people live with long term emotional or physical pain and angst and eventually it becomes too much to bear. Also, as you may know, those of us with substance abuse problems are often at the forefront of self loathing and suicide seems like an answer.
I don’t know how your friend died, but when there is access to firearms, a momentary thought can become permanent.
I am sorry you are suffering and questioning. Please know you are never alone in your grief as so many people the world over also live through this. I hope you gain strength over time and find compassion for yourself and for your friend who was obviously suffering as well and made a very poor decision that those who loved and cared for him now deal with.
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Young lady I don’t know what you do for yourself as far as an outlet to vent. But you need to get these emotions out. Letting them fester will not accomplish anything. So if you have a therapist share. Your boyfriend and you seem to be good together I hope he can help you navigate through this. If you have a sponsor use them. None of this will make it go away but carrying it inside will lock it there. You are doing great. We wish you the best.
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I am sorry
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I’m truly sorry. Prayers & much love to you.
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