I don’t have a single school book yet because I transferred so close to the new school year
I don’t think I will, I don’t like people who aren’t true to themselves so I won’t like myself then either. I’m actually starting to like me, who would’ve guessed
Ja dat klopt, het bloeden is vaak bij het begin zegmaar, of door verkeerd gebruik. Altijd horizontale rechte beweging maken en met elke tand 5x goed heen en terug. Het tandvlees is vaak opgetrokken en door het raggen bloed het eerst vaak wat maar dat moet je zien als herstel , het bloed kan ook wat ruiken of gek smaken maar daarna is het goed. Net als een oorbel die is dichtgegroeid, bloed ook bij weer doorduwen
I guessed ! You made such an progress, being honest, standing up for yourself, sharing and reaching out or to others… The soul in you aged years in a good way, not the body
Ik kom nu weer elke dag in de regio, dus moet binnenkort wel lukken. Ik moet nog even wachten op een reactie van mijn teamleider van school omdat die een afspraak wil maken tijdens een tussenuur. Maar ik denk dat volgende week maandag tussen 11:50 en 13:00 of donderdag tussen 11:05 en 12:15 wel moet lukken
Last night I was feeling regret for my choice of school: “I’m regretting my choice, should’ve gone to the other one”. I was upset until I realized I would have regretted the other school too. Then I realized: “Regret doesn’t mean you’ve made the wrong choice”.
Now I don’t even care about what school I chose, I just care about that I’m proud of my wisdom
Yesterday, next class is computer studies, followed by English, which I think I’ll skip as I don’t need English classes that much, then physics, then some more English. And finally some dumb class about art and culture
637 days no gaming
58 days moderate TV
6 days moderate YouTube
6 days of brushing and flossing my teeth
Decided to fall asleep right after turning off my alarm this morning… I was an hour late at school. I talked myself out of detention though.
School was pretty good. It was kinda humiliating when I discovered that the little brother of my childhood best friend is now in the same year as me. That really sucked big time.
Work was good too. I unloaded the truck for the first time and I did it all by myself. Then I reloaded the truck which is a job that requires a lot of responsibility as forgetting to write down a single number on the cargo sheet can cost the store hundreds of euros. But I’m pretty sure I successfully fulfilled my task. And otherwise, I probably will be having a chat with the store owner soon. But I don’t think I’ll get in trouble if I did mess it up though. I only saw someone do it once and there are around 25 things to remember. And there should have definitely been someone to surveil me just in case as it was my first time.
as soon as the weekend started, life sucked again. I spent the entire time doing homework whilst listening to podcasts obsessively. I need to know what I’m avoiding but I won’t let myself. I am crazy. And I haven’t brushed my teeth the last 2 days, which for me is short, but I want to be successful with my hygiene. I want to do it daily. And it isn’t motivating that small bits of teeth just fall out when you’ve been brushing for 5 days straight. I’m gonna start brushing my teeth again tonight. School has started again. And I hope that means my mood will increase. So far it hasn’t though. FUCK
Of nait mien’jonkje , c’mon bro ! Self care said it all… Take care of yourself. And if somethings turn out to be a small_big block in your head? The fact you speak out you mean to change deliberately unaware state of cooping.
Just be like… What’s 5 minutes gonna make a change in my day? Beside the fact that with that 5 minuits you took care of you… Not so much… But if you don’t take that time, you’ll beat yourself up over that what you didn’t
0 days no YouTube
0 days no TV
652 days no gaming
I watched YouTube quite a bit the last few days. Was it worth it? If course not. I’m not patient enough to take on one addiction at a time nor strong enough to do all at once. And I’ve got so much fucking stress because 2.5 weeks into the new school year, I still don’t have a single fucking book. I can’t do homework. I can’t keep up with my classes. And I want to graduate cum laude. I’m not satisfied with my life. I’m still unable to brush my teeth daily eventhough I’m 18. Wtf.
And after 72 days I reset my TV counter because I saw 2 movies yesterday instead of one. That could still be considered moderation because it isn’t crazy to watch 2 movies in a day. But for me it’s the start of a slippery slope if I don’t reset my timer for that as it breaks my rules.
I think I’m going to try attacking all addictions at once. Podcasts being a no-no as I abused those as a gateway to YouTube. Also pmo I guess as I’ve got an unhealthy relationship with that.
Hey Jan. Good that you’re checking in. I’m sorry it’s hard, but I do believe you’re going in the right direction. These things take time to change. What’s the deal of you not having books??