I’ve been having horrible cravings trough out the day. Yesterday I was listening to the news on my radio. The news told that about a new gta being released, i immediately thought they were talking about gta 6, which i had been waiting for for 5 years before i went to rehab. While writing the annoying little shit in my skull told me i should make sure that it really is gta 6. I did. It wasnt about gta 6. but then i saw a link saying there was some legit news about gta 6 and i was curious so i clicked it. At the bottom of a page, there was another link talking about that gta 6 would be different, guess what, i fucking clicked it. Then i saw a picture of a new dlc, that one hit hard, those were the worst cravings i had since the 27th of novembre 3:30AM 2019. I am really upset about this and im kinda thinking about resetting the timer. I will wait with this decision until i am more capable of rational thinking. And i would really appreciate all your opinions on the matter too.
Another thing that really bothered me is that my stepdad is doing really poorly. I hate seeing him suffer, he was in so much pain he wasn’t even able to answer a question.
Also, i barely did any studying, because I wanted to read a book, which i find an unjustified reason. Another reason was because i wanted to socialize with my stepdads family, which i do justify, because isolation was a pretty big problem for me and corona isnt helping.
Something that surprises me is that I barely checked on TS today. The last 20 days i read literally every new post, but now i have unread posts from yesterday.