Fuck this heat
Fuck my inability to sleep due to this heat
Fuck global warming
Fuck the droughts and sudden rainfall due to the meat industry
Fuck the disappearance of snow in The Netherlands
Fuck!!!
Thus is one of my favourite coping mechanisms just tell fuck and list the things you hate and fuck those and fuck everything. Very relaxing.
I was in a pink cloud for a few days. I probably still would be if I would have been able to sleep. This heat is unusual for The Netherlands. Global warming is a thing and I cannot grasp there are people choosing to remain ignorant despite all signs. The weather is changing big time, there’s less and less snow. It bothers me so much that there’s people who refuse to eat less meat and people who refuse to even try vegetarian meat. Vegetarian meat has improved a lot over the last few years.
I just wish I could change people. I just wish I could postpone the manmade end of the world, but I can’t.
God
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The strength to change the things I can change.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
This is a very different post than my usual post. I simply wrote what I felt like writing.
If something really bothers you, just say fuck that, let the anger out, don’t let I boil in you and ruin your mood. Yelling FUUUCCCKK!!! has a really soothing effect.
I feel like shit. I didn’t relapse or anything, but this heat is really getting to me. It’s making me very pissed. One of my sister’s best friends just moved to Taiwan, I’m sorry for her, but she has this funny coping mechanism that she just makes my life hell. And I bit the shit out of my nails too.
I have been nagging a lot the last days, not very useful. I’ll post a recap of the last few days when I am no longer a grump
I feel the weather changing. It’s no longer humid. I am very tired, but I think I’ll get a lot of sleep tonight. I’ve looked at the weather forecast for the upcoming two weeks and as it looks now, the weather will be much cooler, but not cold. I think I will be my happy self tomorrow , but now I’m going to have a good night’s rest.
Good morning everyone, I just slept like an angel. I got 10 hours of sleep and I’m very grateful.
Today I’m gonna be doing a lot of homework, because I have to hand in everything today. Tomorrow the teachers will decide if I pass. And Wednesday I will hear if I passed I think. This likely has been a stress factor the last few days. I am pretty certain I’ll pass since except for one grade, all my final grades are passing, and the one failing grade is almost a passing grade too and I’m allowed to have one very bad grade. If I pass, I will have done it in 17 weeks of school. Normally it takes 40 weeks.
The sleep has made me very happy so I am no longer a grump yay
I am fucking angry. Someone broke my laptop and it wasn’t me. Two days ago I put it in my parents room, it was just fine then. I just took it and my laptop is broken somehow. Nobody is taking blame, which upsets me most. Just come clean you know, don’t lie to me. I can connect another screen to it so I can still somewhat use it, so that’s not really the point.
I don’t have a lot of money, my parents don’t either so it will likely be a while before I get a new laptop, which annoys me too
Global warming…
Two summers ago Sweden had the warmest summer in a hundred years, followed by the coldest winter in a hundred years, last year we had the coldest summer in 150 years. And this year we had like 5 days with really warm weather like we usually get depending on how the winds are blowing. And now we’re back to the same shitty weather with about +16 degrees and rain. In the north they are having colder than usual and it’s supposed to stay like that for a while.
I’m not saying that global warming doesn’t affect the earth, but statistically speaking it doesn’t affect the climate as much as some people believe. The climate goes in cycles of a few million years,when the dinosaurs roamed around it was really nice and warm. Then we had the famous iceage and then our part of the world actually had Mediterranean climate during the early stoneage just to get in an iceage around the Viking era. The scientists still aren’t really sure if we’re on our way in or out of another iceage again. Because fact is that we’ve only been able to measure the temperature and the climate for a few hundred years. When the changes actually stretches over a million years.
It’ll be an endless discussion though and we probably won’t agree. And I don’t deny that the earth are in bad condition due to pollution and destruction made by man. My point was more that the heat streak we do got from time to time in reality has very little to do with that.
Me too, always have, always will. If we don’t do anything we’re going to wipe out ourselves. Maybe not now, but eventually. No one can do it all alone, but if everyone tries to do their part to save what’s left to save. Like bees for example that helps a lot.
I am so stressed. I will get to know if I passed this year either today or tomorrow.
I will have a proper attempt after I’ve got the results, because this stress is not only killing me, but also my hands
Despite this I do feel great again though, because the heat has gone and I’ve been able to sleep well.
Today was fucking great. I had contact with my formerly estranged dad. I passed the school year. I discovered I will get a new laptop Thursday, which is like 4 months earlier.
Goodnight y’alls.
A new era has come. An era of change. An era of physical improvement. An era of freedom(not from addiction, I will be an addict for the rest of my life). It’s summer holiday. Got out of bed at 6:00AM, because I have to hand in my study books at school I will have to go 30 minutes with the train to Groningen(@050Nl’s city) and back. Later that day I will follow psycho education in Groningen, so again 30 minutes in the train to Groningen and back. That will cost me about €30, but it’s likely that my mom pays it back.
You’d think the first day of spring break would be calm and relaxing but not really. I don’t really mind having a filled schedule, because than I won’t be bored. I do hate the fact that I have to use public transit since social distancing isn’t required in there anymore starting today.
I hope everyone is having a good day or will have a good day
Isn’t food/treats the best way to spend your money? I can’t even imagine how much I would spend if I lived close to a Starbucks. Maybe it’s a good thing that I don’t. It looks delicious.
, but now I’m going to have a good night’s rest. 
It looks delicious.