Hit my goal of 30 days this weekend, and I was counting down the hours and minutes like the ball was dropping on New Years Eve. Slammed two pints like the last month never happened. Here I sit comatose from downing a four pack of 11% Alc longnecks thinking why… I can help everyone but myself today. I will punch the reset button and persevere this week. Saddened by the reality that I will never be able to have just one. Trying to beat my addiction back into its cage, and not reveal the constant struggle to everyone. Lord give me the strength
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They do say we never take our own advice. 
I have managed to stay sober 41 days, a complete miracle. Every day is a struggle and I think about drinking. Do you attend meetings, or IOP groups?
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Congratulations on 41 days, that is great. I have not attended a group session, or counseling yet.
You should look into it, not sure how things are where you from. Here in MA there are so many programs. I attent an intensive out patient group 5 days a week, 4 hour days. They help greatly.
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I atend in meetings for me that is more important than my own family. Some do not understand that .im ok With that. For me is that my my higher power .
Congratz With your sobrierty guys 
togheter a man can achieve it.
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Its okay, its part of who we are… I admit Im afraid of this everyday… I give strong advice but I can feel myself trying to convince me that Im just a few days away from 100 days and THEN Ill be okay to drink… Like WHAT??HOW ? Do I need my head examined??? Lol It’s who we are. I hope you have the strength to start over and make it further this time.
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I know how you’re feeling, my friend. I’m sorry you’re experiencing such a shitty time but you did it for 30 days, next aim for 300!! You will make it. I believe in you relapse or not!
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