A mind that is broken, full of dreams that are dashed,
You can’t break a heart that’s already been smashed.
So exhausted and my bodies aching,
Can’t stop drinking this poisonous medication.
Hating who I am more and more each day,
Wish I could go back and do things a different way.
And as the smoke from the ashtray dances for me,
The demon inside romances me.
Leave your mind behind and have another drink,
This is your life, who cares what they think.
My thoughts get darker and my heart gets colder,
Because I only listen to the devil on my shoulder.
Should I give up or put up a fight,
Would anyone care if I died tonight.
Looking at the mirror, pain is in my eyes,
The reflection isn’t me but a man that I despise.
The dark thoughts and cravings are no longer,
I’m not better yet but every day I’m stronger.
Mainly good days, just the occasional black cloud,
People really care about me, I’m making them proud.
My mind is focused, determined and clear,
I’m making up for lost time, every second of every year.
Eyes blurred by drink but now I can see again,
My friends and family have the real me again.
I love who I am now, I do want to live,
I do give a fuck now I’ve got so much to give.
We can’t change the past but we can make a new start,
Piece by piece I’ve fixed my once broken heart.
It’s a shame that it took being so close to death,
But I’ll live my life happy with every last breath.
The dark days are over, from addiction I’m free,
I can always be happy, just by being me.