Hi Dancingwheel, welcome! It’s nice to meet you and I can hear you - so many of us have been in that spot.
A very similar question came up recently in another thread & I thought rather than writing out a response that would be very similar I might just link here so you can read it over yourself:
Welcome Dancingwheel & remember: you’re a good person who has found something that to you is a problem. You have decided you want to make some choices. You can choose to do no drinking today, and the next day, and the next day. You can say “I have decided not to drink”. It doesn’t have to be more or less than that: a decision to not drink.