So after many years of being clean under my belt. I worked out the years mean nothing when your perception is that it won’t happen you won’t relapse. So I’m back with a more open mind into understanding myself again and making sure I keep intune and upto date with my daily check ins.
As I’ve just learnt when life carries on and you think everything is okay thats when the addict silently decides to give you a nudge that you are still an addict.
5 years later and I’m back to one day at a time.
Went straight away back to a meeting where I felt guilty for leaving a community that held me up at my weakest and I suppose I’m back here where this community gave me the hope and strength to carry on living.
It is good to see you, though yes, wish the circumstances were different. The recovery community knows what is what, and you will be welcomed back, I am sure, no need for guilt. Just need to get back to the basics. Rooting for you.
Welcome back T sounds like you’ve reflected on it and decided to make some changes. That’s all you can do, and it is enough - this whole recovery discovery thing is about living a life of healthy change
Welcome back, dear D! I’ve missed you, and whether Day 1 or Day 1 Million, I will always be happy to see you here.
Speaking from experience, ditch the guilt if you can - it just gets in the way/weigh.
And be proud of yourself for getting straight back to a meeting and here too! That’s how we do this thing. Together. Much love.
When I hit one year sober, I lost any remaining desire to drink. During that beginning year there were several times that I came real close to relapse, but some how I avoided it, usually through the actions of my support group.
With additional time and sober experience, the thought of relapse has been non-existent. I would say it’s been over 30 years since I had a serious feeling of picking up again.
I didn’t get sober to live every day like it could be my last day clean. I didn’t get sober to struggle with being clean every day. I got sober to be free of the alcohol obsession. I am so happy that desire to stay sober has overcome the desire to drink !!
It’s your journey.
No need to feel guilty in relation to the community.
I’m in very early stages of my journey, 3 weeks, haven’t gone to a meeting yet as I’m not sure what they’ll be like…i know from reading that the meeting is just more people in the same boat as me, no judgement or guilt at them.
Use the support to start again.
The recovery community knows what is what, and you will be welcomed back, I am sure, no need for guilt. Just need to get back to the basics. Rooting for you. 
sounds like you’ve reflected on it and decided to make some changes. That’s all you can do, and it is enough - this whole recovery discovery thing is about living a life of healthy change 
