In past, not that long though, I had my days, weeks, two months of sobriety followed by relapses. I’m few days in that dark, void again but it feels different. Like I don’t care and probably lost my faith in myself and not being able not to drink again this evening. I’m not in depression (yet), just this feeling is kind of different to state of minds I had in past. Am I just lying to myself and trying to kind of hide or run away from all the bad unhealthy aspects of drinking etc? Would you have any piece of advice or tip from your own experience that was helpful in overcoming this dark void my mind is in??? Thank you. I drink only during evenings but it’s already too much, you can imagine mornings
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Staying here and reading every day will help. What about a recovery group (AA,SMART,DHARMA) you can do online. Journal and practice gratitude ! It really works if you work it.
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Hi Bunto, I heard from Robert Downy Junior (but somebody else told him, maybe Mel Gibson) to “hug the cactus”, regarding that void and relapses. You’re the cactus, and even a cactus needs a hug.
Somebody on this forum told me not to quit on quitting and that I’m just learning how to handle and fight the addiction and the last day one will come. I’m really thankful to that person, it took a while but the last day one came.
Catherine Gray, in her wonderful book “Unexpected joy of beeing sober” says she didn’t know which day will be the last day one, but it happened, it stuck, and now she’s 10 years sober.
So wherever you are on your sobriety path, just remember, give yourself a big hug, work your program and don’t quit on quitting!
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Definitely have to push my efforts into next level, appreciate the tips, will search it up
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Thank you @DoraV, love this one. I was browsing through my documents and pictures in my archives on PC and refreshed my memory - already in 2016 I realized I have a problem with addiction, during that time I had quite similar thoughts about the reasons like these days why I wanted to quit and yet here I am. Unbelievable. It takes too long, too many excuses, it’s time to be smarter, more resilient and stick to my plan.
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