AA and sobriety is going to save me


#1

I got my one day coin 3 days ago and I have 3 full days of sobriety. today was ths trippiest day because my I think I was withdrawing but im not sure… I was very dizzy and had blured vision. it felt like I was having a body trip… that made me relize how much damage I did to myself when I was drinking and using all of those 14 years. yesturday at AA I was thinking to myself am I really a addict alcoholic? I was thinking this because I didnt feel like I was fitting in with the AA group. its not their falt one bit snd I csn actually I love everyone whos at the meetings. then there was todays AA group where I thought to myself, thank god im at AA because today during the dizzy blurry episode I realized how much AA and NA is needed for myself. today started withme me dreaming of a drug that I ust to use before I woke up out of bed. thrn I had s thought that I wanted to smoke weed anc thd second I told myself im not goinv to use any kind of drug I got all dizzy and had blurred vision. i learned in AA that if you dont think you need a meeting you actually do need a meeting so I went to a meeting. during that meeting I was thinking to myself… wow. just wow … thats the best way I can explaine it. and I mean that in the most heart filled way. all those years I used… all that money I spent… just wow…

I feel better. im tsking it one day at a time or even one minute at a time. im not going to use or drink. thank god for that meeting


#2

Sounds like you are doing the right stuff. I like what you said about going to a meeting because you feel like you don’t need to go. I felt that way last night, I didn’t go, and today I’m feeling shame about not going. I did talk to another guy from my meetings this morning though and it felt good to connect with someone. I’m 31 days sober and need to get to more meetings. I have been successful in forcing myself to go to at least one meeting a week though. Sorry for the rambling. Keep coming back.


#3

Yea meeting for me made it better you guys doing great wish you well