So need advice, I have a lifelong history of being on mental health medication. ADHD and being put on medication is what triggered my stimulant addiction, I was on the highest mg of Vyvanse with an Adderall booster and they cut me off and I discovered meth and was using to self medicate when I spiraled out of control. But now I’m clean and sober off everything including mental health meds but my ADHD is so aggressively unmanageable, just to give you an idea I stopped at a red light the other day, forgot I was driving because I was so in my head, put it in park, and went to lay the seat back… I left my phone at a store, went crazy looking for it, threw my meds away not once, but TWICE… I went to back out of a parking spot, turned the wheel one way and was looking in the appropriate direction, and backed out the complete opposite way. I know exactly where I’m supposed to be going, but will take the wrong turn, why? No idea . They want to put me on meds for it a non-stimulant but I have history of abuse from every med I have been prescribed as I was a guinea pig for trial of mental health meds that never worked for me … so I got off of everything because the withdrawal from antipsychotics is brutal as well. I don’t want to do the cat and mouse chase again or give myself the opportunity to abuse another medication, but I also have not had any cravings in the whole 100 days I’ve been clean and sober it’s almost like my brain shut it out. I have no desire for any sort of substance. But I’m worried taking a medication is going to trigger something in my brain but then again my mental health is unmanageable and I’m gonna hurt someone on the road because I HAVE to drive, or I’m just going to continue being a hot mess and it’s gonna delay my recovery because of absent mindedness… no idea how to go about this… My doc prescribing the meds is an SUD doctor so she’ll understand but my personal fear is still there
I can relate although I have no experience of ADHD. I’m a bipolar and borderline and I have also diagnosed anxiety disorder. I’ve been on meds for almost ten years and although they don’t seem to work I’m too scared to live without them because what if I’ll end up on manic episode or a really dark depression? I have also medicated myself with booze and drugs until I finally got sober and I had to face my mental health issues. So, I don’t really have any spesific advice for you, I just wanted to share my experience. I hope you’ll find a balance and your doctor will understand your situation.
I have used SSRIs, anti-PTSD and antipsychotic drugs, all while using substances. The thing I learnt more than anything else: I couldn’t really tell if any of them were working while I was masking or even undoing their effectiveness with substances. Maybe you could give yourself a little time to see what, if any, difference being sober makes to your mental health and the effectiveness of medication?
I hear you in terms of the struggle to get your doctor’s attention for your mental health and my experiences are similar. It’s only recently that I realized that only I can work my mental health just like we all need to do our sobriety. So I have decided not to get dispirited and instead keep banging on doors until my mental health is in a better place. I hope you can find the energy to continue to do the same, you’ve got this! 
I recently switched from Ritalin to Wellbutrin (it’s an SSRI). I’m just beginning week 3, so I haven’t noticed much of a difference. However, the research shows efficacy in treating ADHD, depression, and to some extent anxiety.
Only you can decide what you’re ready to try or what mechanisms will work for you moving forward. I agree with a previous commentator that perhaps things will be different now that you’re sober.
Good luck!