I wanted to start a new thread for this subject, because I see this subject come up a lot. I don’t quite fit into Al Anon because I recently got sober again myself. I have posted about this before, just over a week ago, actually. Just noticed that I posted about it back in 2018, too. This time around, I have almost 2 months sober.
Well the situation is getting worse and I can’t sleep from anxiety and sadness. I am not sure if this is going to get better.
I don’t want to drink any more.
I am living with someone who is a daily heavy drinker.
This sucks.
Please share your troubles with a loved one and how you are feeling here.
This space is for emotional support, venting your frustrations, sharing coping strategies, leaning on each other.
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I feel the same. My boyfriend still drinks. His drinking doesnt cause problems for him though. So fair enough. Although now I feel like I resent him every time I see him drinking. All I feel is anger all… The… Time
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I know @Dazercat has an very active tread on that subject, did you notice?
But feel free to start your own 
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Thanks. I was looking for this thread and could not find it. I also could not remember the exact wording.
I’m glad yall are here. Thank you for the support.
Shit at my house is bad. My self esteem is in the gutter. My husband has been angry and drunk every day this week. In the past he has just been annoying.
I am already applying to other jobs and looking at apartments. I am feeling done. I want out. Maybe that is the alcoholic in me wanting to run away. But I am hurt and tired and broken.
My husband wont help himself and wont learn from consequences.
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You aren’t running. You’re maintaining healthy boundaries.
A relationship is two people relating to one another, sharing life with one another. If one person is running and numbing - living perpetually drunk and totally gone, to point that it’s desperate and despairing for the other - then it is perfectly legitimate to take some time to set distance.
You are making a choice that works for you today and keeps you safe. The present and your safety is what matters. The future isn’t really what this is about. This is about your current safety and integrity.
You deserve a safe, sober life where you can be your full self.
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Yes. I was looking for it and could not find it! Yesterday was hard and things are going to have to change. Hope you are doing well today!
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Hey Daphnecat, I have read a lot about your struggles. My current husband still drinks, but not a ton and is not an angry drunk. I was the angry one. 
My first husband who passed away WAS an angry drunk, verbally and physically abusive, it was a rough and raw living situation. I knew all those years ago that sobriety held a lot of the key in that marriage. I worked on my sobriety back then too, but wasn’t able (willing, capable, fill in the word of your choice) to sustain sobriety. Anyway, I have been there / am there with spouses who drink.
I am really sorry it is escalating and ramping up your anxiety. I can understand that 100%. Do you have meetings you can attend? I am really glad to read you are taking steps to protect your sobriety AND self esteem…a job, apartment. I know that hit our self esteem and confidence can take. And I also know there is SO MUCH MORE to life than a relationship with an angry drunk.
Things DO need to change and I know for sure WE can and do change them. I hope you continue leaning into your sobriety, your community here and your own personal strength. You are worth it. Making these changes isn’t easy and not always a straight line. Glad you posted.
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