Hey my name is Marlena and my mom’s counselor told us about this app last week in our group meeting so I’m trying it out! So far I love it and all the cool features but my favorite part is the community where everybody talks and shares their stories, lord knows I have one to tell which I will later as we go on. I am 79 days from a year milestone, Although sometimes I don’t feel like I’m clean at allbecause of _negativity_and comments from people that don’t matter and opinions that I shouldn’t even consider. I am in MAT MMT whatever it’s called methadone and I’m about to start my medically supervised detox after I hit one year clean. I started in February 28 because my stepdad died on the 13th that we didn’t get clean off of heroin until the end of June so that’s when I started my sober clock but I will be starting a completely new one once I am completely free! The Staff and the nurses there are sensational they have saved my life literally I wasDoing a six and seven bag shots of fentynol laced heroin and I shouldn’t be here. I had even tried methadone treatment before but the place I went to was all about money and nothing about recovery the place I attend now is phenomenal Not only do we do a group meetings every week but we have a counselor and we have a care coordinator which mine is a sister of the church and she’s my best friend. They are part of our daily lives and they go above and beyond for their patients we do floats for the parade and food drives. the people there are truly God sent angels. I think using tools to help you better yourself and your life is just as good as stopping cold turkey. Different strokes for different folks not one way is the right way, who’s to say that John is better than Amy because she uses methadone and he don’t? Both go to church they both work and take care of their kids, so why is one way okay and the other is looked down upon when both are taking steps to better theirselves? I don’t feel it’s any different it’s like you may take a medication for blood pressure l, as long as they’re using it as a tool and intending to take steps to better their self then great for them! glad I won’t have to rely on that forever I don’t agree with the people that go there every day for a cheap high that are still homeless and jobless and don’t take care of their kids But I’m also glad for the fact that they’re there because the first step is walking in the door. Don’t let people discourage you or talk down on you if you’re on Suboxone or methadone as long as you’re living your best life. I was homeless and have never had a place of my own now I have a house I pay all my bills I have a car I have my license which has been suspended for five years have accomplished so much in ten months. I work two jobs and I’m going back to welding school in August life is amazing. I used to be a prostitute and sold myself for money for drugs lost all respect for myself and sight of who I was, Drugs made me do things I could never imagine I never even kissed a boy till I was in high school but now I have respect for myself and I know who I am today and I am so proud to be ME. And no matter what anyone says I know my past and I also know that it is a chapter of me it is not the whole book. And I’m still writing my story it’s just bright now instead of cloudy.
“It is a chapter of me not the whole book” I really like that! Thanks for sharing! And you’re right, there’s no “one right way” to do recovery, everyone takes their own path and there is no one size fits all cure! Keep fighting the good fight! This forum and its people are great! I hope you stick around!
Hello and welcome to the forum! Congrats on your success! Keep on sinking those 24-hrs. I am in the Midwest (Nebraska). We have people from all over the globe here.
Heyyyy I didn’t expect replies! Maybe I’ll make some friends on here because I don’t have any in real life. Had to cut everyone out that I knew before, not that they were friends anyways. I lived in Omaha Nebraska downtown in Bristol apartments Ian’s miss being out west. I heard hey have bad winters though? No thanks!
I have quite a story to tell got a lot of things I’m not proud of but I try to reflect on those things and I’m very grateful that all those experiences happen because they made me who I am today and unlike others I’m proud of who I am most people feel ashamed that they were an addict but I’m not it taught me everything that I don’t want to be and showed me everything that I do want and give me a reason to strive and create goals for myself. Addiction will show you the evil places of the world and the evil places inside of yourself evil deeds and actions and things you didn’t think you were capable of but everyone should forgive their self because we’re not ourselves we are our addiction. I was heroin, drained money out of other like it drained life out of me. I lied to them like I was fine like it lied to me when it made everything feel better… for a moment. I really think this app and this forum will save a lot of lives and kudos to those that created it because I really relate to eac and every person on here.
Welcome! Glad you are here! I am from Florida. Hope you stick around because this group of people are really great! And I agree 100% with you. Everyone is different, and as long as you or me or anyone else are taking the right steps to better ourselves who is anyone else to judge? Again, welcome!
Thank you so much for the warm welcome! I swear addicts are th most caring, accepting, loving, and giving humans on this earth. The lady who takes the money at the front office at the clinic I go to is having a lot of problems financially and the tire on her car is so bad it was ready to explode so me and my mom snuck and looked at her tires and went and bought her two and came back and gave her the receipt and told her to just show up and they’d put them on! It feels so great to give back to others especially those deserving it! I wish I could just scream to the world because I see so much negativity people should love one another and lift each other up instead I see people wishing they would throw us all in a room and just exterminate the addicts and junkies. it sickens my cell these people are our friends and sisters and brothers and my mom were both codependent on each other and we would drag each other back down So we decided to do our recovery together and we both started the same day he got clean off heroin and stop doing it the same day everything we do we do it together just me and her against the world I’ll try to post a picture but it said I can’t because I’m new. Bummer!
