It’s like I’m auto mode, “need a cold one” quitting Alcohol is one of the hardest things for me.
Hey, that sounds tough. The thing is to get to the point when you are drinking in a pub, you have already made lots of decisions to get there. Your thought processes started way back. For me to get to that point now, I would have to find time, get myself there, walk through the door, walk to the bar, order and then pay, before finally drinking. That is a lot of denial and opportunities to back out you ignored.
Could you try going to meetings as a way of tackling this?
Or jump on here with the first urge?
There is a blessing in this…. Instead of just telling you or reading that your will alone cannot do this and that only a power greater than alcohol can help you with this… the blessing is you are being shown it. Now just take that blessing and run with it. The easy part is getting sober the hard part is staying sober but we all are doing it one day at a time. God Bless you.
If sobriety is at the top of my mind and I have to make effort for it, it works better for me than intending to stay sober without taking actions to back up my decision.
Effort and desire
I get the auto mode. In the beginning, I would always find myself in the beer aisle, first stop…always, when I was grocery shopping.
Almost like a blur…all of a sudden…there I am looking at the beer.
Just because the habit of going took me there, didnt mean I had to act on it. It was a choice. I walked away and left it behind.
Once I made that choice, I had another choice to make. Could I be mindful enough, to pay attention and not go to that aisle?..My sobriety was important enough, I made the choice, to be mindful.
Eventually the sober habit took over…
Cravings, urges are momentary. Our choice to indulge or deny that craving is not. That choice, that action stays with us.