Am I an alcoholic? 20 years of drinking...is it time to admit?

Lisa…I LOVE audio!!! Listen constantly…mostly fiction. But right now I’m listening to Killers of the Flower Moon. Sadly, not fiction. I digress. I will check out “Everything AA”. See?? I don’t check in as often as I used to. But when I do I never go away empty handed!

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Good point @Lisa07 i have the everything aa app and have been meaning to listen to the tapes. Thanks for the reminder!!

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Your journey is aspiring. I hope to be able to find my way to sobriety. After over decade of drinking. And multiple times of hearing myself say today is day one, only to be drinking by the afternoon or giving up on day 4. I really want this for myself. Starting my day 2 and my only goal is not to drink to today. It helps to read your journal and others. Keep going on your journey.

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I am reading AA Living Sober. Great accompaniment to the Big Book. May you find comfort and peace.

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@tailee17 … thanks. Just downloaded the Everything AA app. Holy :cow2:!!! Wealth of resources!! Thanks @Lisa07!!

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Congrats on getting your head to your pillow sober yesterday. All we have is one day at a time. Its really fricken tough the first week. Just wake up and with conviction say i will not drink today. So glad you could get some inspo from my thread. This community is amazing. Find your support asap. I found my support here and in the rooms of aa.

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What a wonderful, sober belly button birthday. I spent the holiday living life to the fullest.

Ran my best 5k race yet.
Officially joined the run club
Spent time with my dog son
Went to a new to me recreation area…not to future me…its too hilly
New shoes
Got dolled up for a fancy dinner with hubby and my folks
Nice walk with hubby and Boscoe into the sunset
Today was a really good day
No day is guaranteed. Live it and live it sober

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Happy Birthday CJ! :balloon::birthday:
The day you had sounds wonderful. :grin:

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Oh that sounds like a fantastic way to celebrate your special day!!.:confetti_ball::tada:
Way to go CJ. You are an inspiration and I’m so grateful to have you as a friend. :people_hugging:

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Sounds like a fantastic day all around.
Sorry I’m late to your party.
Happy Birthday CJ!
::confetti_ball::partying_face::birthday:

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Powerful!!!

Happy birthday! I hope you get many Boscoe kisses and many happy and sober days.
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@Cjp - just a light-hearted note: I am totally an alcoholic and have a desire to never drink again… Or do I? I mean, once I am 95, in a retirement home and diagnosed with whatever terminal illness is going to kick my bucket, I am totally going back to drinking! :joy:

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Happy belated Birthday, Cjp! I wanted to tell you that you are a true inspiration and a real hero for me. What you achieved is really awesome and takes a lot of strength. You have that strength!

I am new to this forum. Tried to moderate my binge drinking for years now, which - surprise, surprise - did not work so well; 38 years old habits seem hard to break. Reading your thread for some reason strongly reduced my fear from living without alcohol. All of a sudden I do not have the aim of not drinking the next 30 or 50 days. Already did do that this year and started again, because, hey, I moderated!

Just want to not drink today - totally different perspective. Now I am at day 30, even went to a conference last week, which usually would be a huge trigger for me. Your thread, however, helped me not to drink and reflect. I know I have some work to do to keep this going. This forum will be one of the tools on my path. I am looking into therapy to address my anxiety. Also just downloaded the everything AA app for inspiration.

Thank you again for sharing!!

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Aww @Timbuk thanks for sharing. Im glad my experience resonated with you. Thats awesome you found some inspiration. Keep reading around theres plenty of inspo and support in this community.

I still dont want to think about forever. Im just not using for today and may not use tomorrow.

Congrats on day 30! Thats an awesome milestone. Looking forward to milestones helped encouraging me. Stick around my friend

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lol guess I’m late to the party. Hope you day was awesome!

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Day 888.

Boy do i love numbers, they bring me joy, they have universal meaning. Im so greatful for the despair and desperation i had 888 days ago to instigate action, even if that action was to blindly follow the teaching of other alcoholics who were thriving in sobriety.

Im greatful to be on this spiritual journey and finding a faith in the unknown. A faith in my higher power that got me sober…for fucks sake i didnt get here on my own will.

Im greatful thru aa i was able to find a growing spirituality. I dont know where this journey will take me and if/when/or i will arrive at a destination. Im greatful today i know a peace and acceptance i havent ever known thanks to the program of aa.

What a gift sobriety is. I know me getting sober is a fucking miracle

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Wow girl! 888 days and thriving in your sober life! So very happy for you and grateful to be in this journey with you. May you always be leading the way :people_hugging::pray:t4::muscle:t4::muscle:t4:

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