Still glad to see you stop 
by here each day to let us know youāre still kicking. An uneventful day isnāt all bad. 
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Yep time for bed. brilliant day again. Got loads to say but said it all in different places to different people so donāt want to repeat everything. Basically doing more for other people for no other reason from apart from you can without wanting any praise or financial reward is a great feeling, I almost feel guilty feeling good about it. I want nothing from the experience apart from the happiness of others. Be strong.
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just about to roll in to Day 94 alcohol and day 54 weed and tobacco. People at work are asking me when my new project is going to start, now the staff want to go to it. This is getting a bit crazy that Iām suddenly going to be responsible for motivating the people Iāve worked with for ages. To even think that they believe I would be capable of such a thing quite baffles me. I expected to be laughed at for even suggesting a wellbeing session, An hour of spiritual fun and meditation. now I just gotta figure out how to stand up in front of these people and give them the same feeling I have without crapping myself of getting over righteous. I have discovered a couple of people who think itās stupid and it turns out they are the ones who would benefit most as they are very angry, self centered people who donāt believe in anything, not even them selves. Isnāt this always the way though. I used to think I knew best until one day I asked for help from my Higher Power, turns out I knew absolutely fucking nothing about life, happiness or myself. Be strong sober warriors.
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Paul, got a lot of time for what you are doing mate. Well done.
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I canāt wait to hear how it goes. Iām sure most will be very receptive. It will probably end up being beneficial to you too. What a great feeling to give back. Keep us posted.
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Well, as the number of members grow, you will find a greater diversity of people from all over the world and all with their own unique experiences and point of view. So, it makes sense that not everyone will have the same outlook or sensitivities. It does give us an opportunity to practice patience and tolerance. Which has been frustrating, challenging and also a positive thing for me. YMMV. 
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what is YMMV?.
Anywhooo day 95 and day 55. Life is still great. isnāt it boring writing life is great all the time, Iām so used to having a life of stress, worry and constant drama. coming up to my century soon and Iām coming to terms with the fact that I am always going to want a drink, itās a great motivation for me to see people relapse and come on here and be honest about those feelings. I still canāt promise anything to myself but I sure as hell donāt want to be doing one of them posts. So if you have relapsed lately I know it sounds a bit shit to hear right now but everything happens for a reason and today you have kept this fool of a man sober.
Remember we get one shot at this life lets not waste anymore of it.
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Your mileage may vary 
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Iāve so got dementia. Yes I already knew that. Thank you yoda 
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10:50 here
Night night
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Good night my sober friends. Another day in the booksā¦
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day 95 and 45 almost doneā¦ Today I went to a place I have been going for years every week but it ended very different. What I expected to be the usual boring walk round the shops turned into a guided video tour for @Lisa07 in America. You should try it. I ended up looking at everything in a completely new light, I didnāt just walk past every thing, instead I noticed every detail to decide if it was worth a photo or videoā¦ Its beautiful in its old English way. I felt very lucky and blessed. It was definitely one up on poundland and McDonaldās.
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It was an absolutely beautiful tour. I appreciated every last pic and vid. The buildings are amazing. Thank you Paul!!
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No thank you. Thank you for allowing me to share my day and you making me open my eyes for a change. I canāt really explain it apart from for the first time in 48 years I discovered a new place to live. And you thought I was just walking. It ended up being a kinda spiritual journey night.
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Goodnight to all of my sober friends. Just returning home from an incredible menās meeting in Alcoholics Anonymous which I am the secretary for. Much appreciation and gratitude to be of service. But for the grace of God go I.
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Day 96 alcohol day 56 weed and tobacco. Planned and completed week 2 of my wellbeing project, bit nervous about presenting it in a couple of weeks though. My prayers and relentless daily posts about AA and Eckhart Tolle are finally paying off bc my daughter has sent me a message saying she is only going to have a drink one day a week. Next will be the realisation that she canāt do one day, if she can then maybe she is one of the lucky ones and I got to her while she is still young or more to the point she asked for help while she was still young. One more day at work and 7 days off. Yes as ever life is good. Be strong warriors of the world.
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Youāve been planting those seeds with your daughter and it sounds like theyāre growing, not full bloom yet which is ok, sheāll get there. Keeping her in my prayers.
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just starting day 98 and 58. A couple of great threads on here tonight. Nothing to report apart from what a team we are, it truly is a blessing to have stumbled across you lot, not sure 36 years of addiction is the price I was willing to pay but all in all the past is the past and you are now and as far as now goes itās bloody awesome. Be strong.
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Day 100 alcohol and day 60 weed and tobacco. Thatās what I wake up to in the morning. What more can I say.
Itās been horrible, itās been emotional, itās been many times unbearable, itās been stressful itās been so close but not quite, itās been crying its been like I think Iām dying, itās been standing in shops and keep walking to the checkout with a bottle and taking it back to the shelf 8 times, itās been putting spliffs in my mouth and not lighting them lots of times, itās been arguments, itās been lonely, itās been warnings off my boss for absence.
Itās been the best road of self discovery I have ever walked. I know who I am and I like him. I know there is more to life than just me but Iām the most important thing in it. How I think is how the world sees me now. I have friendship, I have 2 beautiful daughters who want and deserve a father who loves them. Confidence, patience, knowledge, passion, happiness, control, understanding, acceptance, higher power, love, peace, life. Yes I have a life. I donāt have hope though, I donāt hope for anything anymore I make it so. THANK YOU EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU. Be strong.
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No, thank you Paul.
For being here.
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