F*%k! The past few days including today! Im about to lose it!! No matter how much im there for everyone else! More than myself, seems its not enough. I put sacrifice in the stuff i do for other’s. At times im so tired, i wish they can cater to me when im in need. But i guess they dont see that at all. I stay quiet about alot of things. Because i know what my bad side could bring… i dont want that. Its like when i do have the time to focus on myself and do what i please. I become the bad person. Ugh… i even talk nice and kind to them, even when their mean sometimes. I care for everything in the house,cleaning,cooking,making sure we have groceries, on top of everything. Even at times thinking for them. Geez… and im over here by myself trying to study to get my ged so that i can get a better job. I dont know… as much as me dealing with their anger and frustration being around it is dragging me down. Ugh…!!
Good morning Crystal.
I’m sorry that you feel so unheard and disrespected in your surroundings.
Is it possible for you to state in a polite and courteous way that you need some space to focus on your bettering your education so that it’s not a waste of everyone’s time?
Wishing you success!
Oh boy I can relate. Putting others ahead of myself, having my happiness tangled up in what others think of me, getting filled with resentment, when they don’t see my needs, having angry outbursts, and feeling shame about that. This cycle didn’t stop until I started putting myself first, taking care of myself first, stopped trying to figure out what others want or need or feel, stopped worrying about what others might think or say when I calmly put boundaries in place,
Can you go to a library or some other quiet place to study? Or if you use a private room in your house, noise cancelling headphones can help. I’m rooting for you!!
Hi Joy, sound like your doing good, and I’m sure your people appreciate it. I understand it can be frustrating at times, but just don’t stop believing in your ability to accomplish anything in life. Happy New Year, Peace,love, and Joy.
People, places, & thing’s. We have to change our way of thinking to maintain sobriety, sometimes that involves changing our own patterns of whom we attract, by reshaping our values, sounds like you need to value yourself more, my advice would be to surround yourself with people who feed you energy, so you can reground your own energy. Or energy is precious, spending it wisely can leave you with enough to avoid emotional burn out, with much love, support, and respect! Best wishes!