Attempting to stay sober, again. Been drinking since I was 13 so it’s been 13 years. I’ve tried to quit multiple times yet always start drinking again. Not labeled as an alcoholic just a binge drinker. Wish I could be the person who could
Do things in moderation but unfortunately my brain is wired 0-100. All or nothing. Was fun, now it no longer is. Not sure if I’m wanting to quit forever because that just sounds awful but living this life the way I have been also sounds awful so 5 days in and it sucks…really looking for others who understand. Someone I can go to when I need that reminder. Honestly I don’t know what I’m really looking for 
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Welcome to the forum
Check in daily to keep accountable
When you say you don’t identify as an alcoholic, if you’re posting on a sobriety forum you probably have a drinking problem, there is no shame, the first step is admitting you have a problem.
The key is fellowship and fully surrendering coming to the realisation you cannot drink responsibly 
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As someone who drank for 20+ years, I can tell you it will only get worse if you keep going back to it. All or nothing, to me, means I drink or I don’t. If I take just one drink, there’s no knowing when I’ll be able to stop myself again. Ride this wave of your desire to quit. The longer you do, the easier it gets. And trust me, it will be worth it. Don’t waste another decade of your life like I did. All the best 
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Hello and welcome to the TS community. Early sobriety can be hard and confusing. Not everybody gets physical withdrawal symptoms, but each and everyone has their own story of how alcohol keeps occupying their mind and tries to lure them back into old habits.
Forever is a scary long time, and just the thought of it can be discouraging. It can feel unachievable. Just stick with today. Stay sober for just one day, and tomorrow you do it again for just one day. Keep checking in and see the number of your days grow steadily.
I personally like the phrase sober journey, I use it too. You don’t like the label alcoholic? You don’t have to use it. Sober journey is just fine 
Look around and read through posts, engage, take part, ask advice, give advice and you will find what you are looking for.
Let’s continue this journey together 
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Try a meeting wish you well
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I understand that, I just said that because for years my doctors never actually labeled me as that, just said I was a binge drinker, now that was when I was 17 so of course times have changed so you’re right, definitely think it’s time to accept the truth.
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Yep 
Well you’ve made the first step
Welcome to the community 
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Yes, it used to sound awful to me too, until I realized that I wasn’t really living while drinking. Once I not only accepted being sober forever, but truly embraced it, that’s when I really started living.
I can say this without equivocation or reservation: in quitting alcohol, I lost nothing, and gained everything.
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If there any any AA meetings near you I really recommend you go anytime you have the urge to drink and just listen it really helps…one day at a time
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