Back to day 11. Had another relapse a few weekends ago. I find the hardest time for me is when Iām alone on weekends or when I go out to eat and just say screw it, Iāll have a few drinks. I didnāt get ādrunkā and ended up pouring out half the bottle of wine that I had bought. I am happy for not completely binging. Reminding myself that this is not a linear journey . I wish the poo emoji wasnāt smiling 
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Youāre at 11 days, thatās awesome! Relapsing again doesnāt have to be part of your journey. Focus on the good youāve been doing and add to it. Canāt change the past but you sure can determine your future. Stay at it, you want it, you can achieve it.
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Well done for pouring out the booze. That takes strength. 
So you mention going out to eat or being alone as being dangerous for you right now. So do the opposite: eat in, hit some online meetings, make a schedule for free time, jump on here when a craving hits, take a bath, go to bed, etc. In the early days I did all I could to keep my hands and mouth busy at all times. For me that was study apps, tea and mints, but do whatever is your preference.
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As @Mno reminds us, connection is the opposite of addiction. Your difficulty when you are āalone on weekendsā is quite logical in that respect. Connecting with others who are dedicating their lives to sobriety, online and IRL, seems to be the antidote. When I got sober, I went to AA meetings as often as possible for two reasons - 1) they seemed to know how to stay sober and I did not, and their top suggestion was to attend meetings, and 2) it was a place I could hear the experience of others that matched my own with drinking and the feelings of failure it brings, and thereby reduced my shame.
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Maybe try a meeting meet new like minded people you can fill your week ends with wish you well
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