Day 39 and it seems like my emotions are getting the best of me lately. Happy one second. Angry the next. Hopefull and hopeless at the same time. My anxiety has been through the roof and I can’t seem to sit still and I always feel like something bad is going to happen lately… haven’t posted in a few days because I haven’t had much to say really. Hoping this feeling passes or at least eases. My meditation helps for me in the morning but as soon ss I’m done with that my brain is back at full panic mode. I think I have hit the so called “wall” in recovery. Anyone else feel like this
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CLIMB THE WALL! BREAK THE WALL! GO THROUGH THE WALL! Walls are GOOD my friend!
Perhaps this is another layer of yourself that you need to peel away to reveal what was keeping you drinking.
PAUSE. Look at the wall. Imagine what is hiding behind the wall. What would happen if you don’t do anything besides PROCESS the anxiety in a positive way? Something that most of us aren’t used to doing? If your like me and have stuffed down a lifetime of REAL feelings, they aren’t going to go away in a month or two. Recovery takes TIME! Its a labyrinth of walls, pit holes, black holes even… but you need to keep moving forward, over, under, through… just never back.
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When things are going really well and you’re through the roof happy…it’s called “riding the pink cloud” in recovery. You didn’t hit a wall…just came off the cloud for awhile for some personal growth. We don’t grow when everything seems wonderful…growth is in dealing with the uncomfortable emotions and events that makes us stronger.
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What is this “wall” you speak of? @Steve92 Im on day 21 and my anxiety just started.
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I hope you’re doing okay. I’m 5 weeks sober and my anxiety is the worst its ever been. Maybe this is the final test of my will power. I don’t know. All I do know is that it sucks. Let me know how you made it through.
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My anxiety was pretty bad too, even at 5 weeks. Alot agitation, fatigue, sad, happy, you name it you’re gonna feel it. But 
for me while drinking it was ten times worse. Start doing small little things, that you never would do before…a small bike ride ? Or walk. Exercise is seriously the key, to anxiety, depression, and anxiety. Once you start, you’ll see. But you never would caught my ass out in public walking or riding a bike in my addiction days. It takes time but now I’m out on My bike alot,I still haven’t taken a jog outside yet, only treadmill bc of my anxiety, but I’ll slowly get t self there. Just be patient and easy on yourself, I have to learn the same thing still we think it’s gonna happen overnight and everything is gonna be good lol, I still think this alot and these friends on here bring me back to reality. Just definitely don’t give up, it will all be worth it bud. Oh yeah and also, men’s multi vitamins, and magnizuim pills we’re very good mood boosters for me. I use to be on venflaxazine, Zoloft, wellbutrin, Prozac, paxel. I tried them all, and now I take nothing. It does get better
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I actually started taking some magnesium just the other day. That with vitamins, turmeric, and some cbd. It’s no fun, but it does help.
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I was hit by anxiety really bad between 3-5 weeks and it really crippled me. I did anything I could; used this app, prayed (even though not particularly religious), listened to podcasts, anything to get me through.
Don’t forget, anxiety is a ‘fight or flight’ response - it is primal. Your body feels it it is under threat from not drinking (crazy eh!). You cannot ‘think’ your way out of it, you just have to make the journey ‘through’ it as painless as possible.
What others say about it being a ‘wall’ is true. It is put up there to get you to turn around and go back to drink.
I haven’t done that, I smashed through the wall.
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Anxiety sucks but we also have to deal with them very often.
I’m on day 21 and I feel like having mental inflammation whenever I had unwanted thoughts and urges to relapse.
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I felt that. It took the strength right out of me. Made my legs into spaghetti and my brain put on hold. Actually just to think was a strain and I got really really anxious. Thought I had to use again. This is when I asked for help and this guy said to me; ”you are in PAA”, it will pass, and it did, -Just like that. Post Acute Abstinence. Its a trick of the mind, it fools your body to believe you are in withdrawals and well, It feels just like day 3 but you are clean now. PAA usually hit inbetween week 3 and 6 but it is quick to pass. Tremblings and bad memory can be had during this time too. But it will pass. Just by beeing aware made me get through it in like minutes? It came back 1 week later tho, but then I allready knew whats up so it didnt really scare me. I knew it will pass and that I didnt have to use to be freed of it
Good job man staying clean. Keep it up, you are worth it 
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Paa makes a lot of sence to me.
I may only have a 3 day sobriety streak but in between streaks i have quite a bit of time.
Latley ive been irritable. Is that conciterd a form of anxiety?